Friday, April 27, 2007
and once again I flunk another test.
I am just *this* close to giving up. Just hoping that another easier door/path will be opened in my life so that I don't have to go through all the failures, and sadness that I am experiencing now.
Yet, something just stopped me from doing so. Something is telling me that if I persevere through this period of time, I can face anything in life in the future; that I can be proud of myself. In the midst of feeling lousy and hopeless, I see a tinge of hope that I will make it, somehow. Now, I am utterly confused and lost. I just want to cry it out, but I seemed to have used up all the tears just a few days ago, and I feel so stuffed up inside.
'when you have a BIG problem, you have a small God'.
Where's that faith and trust I used to have in Him?
That prediction is really coming true.
How long more can I endure?
Will tomorrow ever be a better day?