Wednesday, April 02, 2008
Just a quicky update of my first few days back at school after a crazy easter break(: Things aren't going so well, considering the break broke my momentum, and not the luckiest thing happened to me on April's Fool (which I shan't elaborate)
But nonetheless, I felt God speaking to me through this incident. That is, I have to lose "everything" that I thought were important, before I could learn to fully let go and surrender the things that truly matter. And today during Ignite, once again, I learnt that God has already given me whatever I need for Him to work in me; to allow me to accomplish anything. All I need is faith, and not fear.
This isn't easy for me, not the 'faith' bit, but the lack of control over my life. People have told me that I was a strong leader, over the years. Somehow that is starting to take a toll on my spiritual life. I have always wanted some control over what I do, but because of that, God can't do what He needs to do.
The whole time in Singapore, I have been working and striving for my own personal glory/pride/pleasure. It's time for me to do something for others(: Despite the fact that I love/adore dance, I am not committing as much time as I can into it. I don't know why, maybe because of studies? That shouldn't be an excuse, I shouldn't have an excuse at this point in my life, cos whatever I do is for the Glory of God. So, I was reflecting, and I thought about all the information I am getting about helping in church, going on mission trips, going for voluntary work trips. Probably thats what I should be focusing on(: First with the churh; there's this Kid's Alive thing, basically playing with kids. Personally, I am not fascinated by them like some people, but considering that I have been working with people my age or older all my life, so right now, might as well release some inner kid emotions. haha. I mean you don't really see me speaking kiddish language right. Second, I really really want to go on a mission/voluntary trip with Uni or Church(: It will be so funnnn! If I meant to go, God will make me available, no matter what time, or what I am doing. Praise the Lord.
I neeeeeeed activities OTHER THAN STUDYING in my life. Without them, I am actually not focusing on my schoolwork because I will think that I have loads of time to waste.
Hm, lets see, hung out at church for Ignite and talk to people. Which was SOOOOOOOOOO fun. haha. The people there are great(: And there's this (fancy) dinner on friday night at
Mosskito (thats what they call it). I should be going, because its a good time to know more church people. Well, if it was in the past, I would have said no, and give an excuse that it's too late.
We will see...
Have a good week. (: Cheerios
