Veritas; SPREADIN` RHYTHM AROUND

Revolution Camp!

2009-05-18T19:48:00.003+08:00

Saviour I come, quiet my soul
Remember, redemption's hill
Where your blood was spilled,
For my ransom...

Your grace is sufficient. Every expectation that the World may put on me, it does not replace any part of your grace and love that You have blessed me with. What you've given and provided is more than enough.

Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost.

My plans, my life, my expecations is now Yours. That I am ready now, for You to reign in my life.

Lead me to the heart
Where your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself I belong to you
And lead me, lead me, lead me to the cross.

To Your Heart
To Your Heart
Lead me to Your Heart
To Your Heart.

Praise You Lord, for Your healing, Your blessing, Your love, Your grace, Your mercy, Your wisdom, Your guidance. Everything I have is Yours.

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Whao, I'm spirit-shocked at the moment. All the crazy awesome bible bashing at camp just left me speechless. I was definitely hoping that camp will be beneficial, but I never expected that 'camp' actually started the moment I took that step of faith to go for camp in the midst of the crushing workload. *gasps* When the weekend of camp actually did arrive, His mighty power was just unleashed in my life.
The simplest revelations that I have never realized, the whispers of God I never listened, His greatest blessing and gifts I never had the faith to accept, were all revealed to me so clearly over the weekend. That commonly prayed prayer- " God, let no one step out of Your presence the same way they came", is so very true. By His love, my situations and circumstances has been shifted so drastically. And I know this is just the start...

So very thankful that I got to get away from all the chaos in reality and just be in peace and tranquility with Him. Very thankful for the discipline, and every opportunity I got to encounter Him.
Perfect timing, from a Perfect King, planned out of Perfect Love.
A whole new season is coming... (:

2009-05-05T16:30:00.003+08:00

everytime I fall, You picked me up.
And I will get back up, stronger. Because of You.

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Ever felt useless, disappointed at yourself? Thinking that no one else on earth can disappoint you more than yourself.

Exactly.

when you fall that hard, do you choose to stay there, and even dig a hole in the ground and bury yourself even deeper. Or are you going to stand back up and keep walking The Walk?

So this feeling has been lingering in me for months and months. And a month ago it overwhelmed me. More and beyond what I ever thought I could control. And this brought my emotions inside out. I have never faced myself in such a "raw", "honest" way- No more excuses, no more comforting words to cloud that image of who I truly am... Till now, I could only say that it was a bittersweet image.
It has come to a period of my life that I have to stop lying to myself about how awesome life can be by my own strength and plan. It's time that God showed me who I am without Him. Absolutely weak and vulnerable, easily crushed by anything from this harsh cruel world. Awesome teaching from God huh?

Not really.

I am truamatised. Absolutely truamatised. To the extent of not knowing what to pray for. I'm not sure if that's what God intended. Maybe it's just me processing this a little too slowly. Not understanding why.
So everytime I step out of that exam hall, everytime I complete a test, even everytime I finish a tutorial class, I had to go through this torturous process of feeling crushed and disappointed because what I just did was the exact replica of what happened before.
As much as I would like to listen to awesome sermons that tells us "not to live in the past", it doesn't seem as easy. How can I forget what happened before

And He spoke. snapped me out of that state instantly.

"Dont ever label yourself. Because I did not label you as one of them. I named you. I created you"

Mind-blowingly simple truth... yet so easy to slip out of my mind.

How many times have I said to myself, I belong to the bottom of the bottom half of the cohort. So, before I even step into that exam hall or that room, I prepared myself for that same old crushing feeling when I come out.

But by what authority can I label/catergorize/allow myself to see myself that way; to feel that way?
Even God didnt put me in a group. He created me as a single, individual unique Child of God to shine for Him in this World.
Each and everytime I fall, He picked me up. He didn't wait for my group of friends to fall before He picked us up altogether (just to save the trouble...). Imagine it would be so much easier for Him to just scoop us all up together. :D But the God I know, is that Personal God that will be there for you and only you.

It doesn't take a dozen 45 mins sermons that are rephrased a dozen different ways to have it drum-ed that into your mind, drilled into your heart, sunk into your soul.

All it takes is a desperate heart; ever-thirsting for God.

2009-04-28T21:33:00.002+08:00

its been a while...
but I'm back. :D
So this is where I start a new chapter of revealing the works of the Lord in my Life.
Every step of the way. (well, at least most of it)

Stay tuned!

2008-09-03T08:07:00.003+08:00

Its the start of day three now... Its gonna be a brand new day, a brand new start, a new level of understanding this whole period of fasting. My mind is constantly thinking of how I can get deeper understanding with God.
Yesterday.
DAY TWO
So I find myself alone in the morning in an almost empty lecture theatre, and I decided to open the bible. And I knew God was there. I could feel it. Then the hunger for answers, for visions, started to boil up. But there was jsut silence from Him. I didnt get anything out of the bible. Just nothing. Nothing but His Holy presence. And eventually He spoke to me through the day. Answers are not carefully seeked, its there right before us. But its a choice of obedience before He opens our eyes and heart to discover the things unseen.
I am gonna start appreciating that silence now. Just to bask in His Holy Presence(:

So time of sharing at night was pretty peaceful. Nothing crazy happened. Just a time of truthful sharing. And also reflecting on our day. And Rubhi could feel the change in herself. While I could feel the difference in others; friends that we've been praying for in the house. Just a little more love and understanding. I know there is a long way to go. But we are just gonna continue praying faithfully that the visions we've had would happen.
Oh well, there IS something Rubhi and I felt in common. Hunger. We really wanted to eat the bible. One page a day. hehe.
Ohyes, Natsuki's ankle is getting soooooo much better. At least she will still be able to perform. Wow, just 3 days ago, she was at the verge of being kicked out of her performance, and right now she is going back into it. Amazing. Amazing.
God, what can I say?

Anyway, doors are opening. Its time to take away the fear of handling it amd bring out courage and obedience.
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Temptations, GO AWAY!! I am looking for Breakthrough that is gonna be SO MUCH bigger and mighter than you!

2008-09-02T10:11:00.002+08:00

21 days of Fasting. Leading to a breakthrough.
For some people, this is more than 21 days, it is the first 21 days of eternal life.

So last night was Day one of fasting meeting between Rubhi and I. It just went out of control. Just totally out of my expectation. I dont even know where to start. I just know that visions that I had about the house; it is coming true. Coming so fast that I would never expect. Somehow, I dont know how to handle it. I suppose this is God's challenge isn't it? He knows what I am made of. All I can do is to trust in Him. Have Faith in Him and obey Him like I have never done before. Because it is going to change lives. Not mine, but theirs. I'm just gonna be there every step of the way. And I have Rubhi fighting alongside with me. (: I'm just have to continue to pray that He will provide all that we need to get through this period of His overwhelming blessings. I know that He will give us friends, people, circumstances, opportunities, strength, wisdom and EVERYTHING, for us to build His Kingdom. So, if anyone of you are reading this, please keep Rubhi and I in your prayers!! And if you need a prayer yourself, just shout it out!! Its a battle that all children of God must stand together; and we are bound to win(: whao.

Rubhi, Thank you for everything that happened last night. THANK YOU THANK YOU! PRAISE THE LORD. And just stand firm, babe. You are so much more than what people see and think. Find that identity in Christ. It will come...

So yesterday was DAY ONE, and the Holy Spirit was working in both of us till 3am. What is gonna come in DAY TWO? DAY THREE and on and on?!!

2008-08-25T07:48:00.004+08:00

I knew today will be a great great day. And the minute I went online, Jo left me a message to tell me that her granddad accepted Christ. I mean, WOW. When all things seem impossible, God worked His magic. Once again, He is reminding me about Divine Appointment. One day, just one special moment, my loved ones will be saved. All I have to do is just to keep praying in Faith, and the Holy Spirit is going to work!!
Anyway, Jo, you saw what our God can do. All it takes is for you to believe and trust in Him. That simple. It's not me who kept praying for you that worked, it is your prayer! Your words, your cry out to the Lord that moved Him. And I just hope that you will do that in every aspect of your life. Just entrust Him everything. He is a life-changing, miracle-working God.

wow... As I sit here, typing... pausing... still in awe of His work. In awe of just how stunning He is.
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Last night marked the end of Beijing 2008. And I have to say, I am so very proud of Beijing of what it has achieved. 8 years of hard work, with so many obstacles that could easily destroyed China's dream of a successful olympics; yet they overcame it all and created one of the best event the world has ever witnessed. Just overwhelming to see from the very start of the Olympics with the whole opening ceremony, till the final moment of celebration in the closing ceremony. Wow!!
Just how much it has gone through. How much change has been done to that city and people within such a short time is insane. And yet, it still doesnt lose its culture, history and identity.
God is watching over that country. He has much more amazing work to be done there. It's gonna be beyond any of my wildest imagination...
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Why is everyone just staring at me? Why?
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God, let your will be done... Just create opportunities.
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Okay, just random thoughts. They are all totally unrelated to each other.
Go figure...

2008-08-23T18:58:00.003+08:00

"... and so I will Serve, with Love and in Truth."
This was what went through my mind over and over again today. Its a message from God. Just to remind me of who I am, and what my purpose is.
Its like the end of a sentence. An end to a period. An end to a section of my life. But this is how it will end. No matter what I've done. No matter what I am doing. No matter what I will be doing... I will Serve under God's calling. Wherever I may be, I will open my heart for God to guide me, so that I can be a guide to someone else who still lives in Darkness; To love them and bring them to the Truth and the Light.
That's my Life. That's my identity. That's what God wants me to be. That's a calling.
Obedience comes next.
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As I look back to the quotes I noted down; that I pick up from everywhere. Quotes that held so much meaning. They all seem to have one thing in common. Truth.
And I asked God why. Why Truth? Why not wisdom? Why not endurance? Why not patience? Isnt that what I need, Isnt that the things that are lacking in me?
Then again, it struck me.
Have I been living a life true to myself? True to God?
I probably have, but probably not to the extent of what God wants. He wants so much more from me. Because He knows how much more I can go. And once again, He keeps bringing "Truth" into my life because He knows that it is Truth that will shape me. And indeed, based on "Truth", it has shaped my Life to what it is today. And I have to hold on to that. Hold on to it so dearly because that is my identity in God.
Being true to God. Being true to myself. Being true to people.
There will be distractions. There will be times that I will sway away for the Truth, and just hide in the darkness for a while. But God is constantly driving me out. No doubt it gets draining and exhaustng to always stand in the Light. Its so easy and 'joyful' to just hang around in the Darkness, ride along with the crowd, but God didnt make me that way. I cant deny that I havent fully live up to God's expectations yet. Not even close. But I thank Him so much, so much for putting some amazing people in my life. To constantly remind me, constantly encourage me and most importantly Inspire me, to stand back up and do God's will and walk the path of Light.

Have I been true to myself? True to God's will?

Because of that, I start to question whether what I am doing now is God's will? Or am I just doing it just for the fun of it. Just because its fun to 'serve' and help people. Make them smile. Of course, serving God is awesome, its an honour. But is it where my focus should be? I am extremely clear that kid's alive is for me. But what about all the others that people have been asking me to go? Its fun, yes. But is it where I should be spending my time?
That's why I am stepping one step back. Just putting certain things on hold for a moment. Just to put God's will into perspective. The past few weeks have been a blur. Suddenly, I am so concentrating in the "fun" bit of serving, I blocked out God's voice.
Right now, I am gonna step back and step out of the buzz, and just listen again to what God wants me to do. Not just in terms of serving. But every aspect of my life. The whole way through studies and friendship.
Everything...

Let your will be done...
As we Love, Be lifted High
In my Life, Be lifted High

My blog is so dead...

2008-08-12T11:41:00.002+08:00

And so I admit that my life is in a mess. I know I'm trying to keep up with all the work in school. But I know I am not doing my best. Dont get me wrong, I'm wanna do my best, but somehow there's this discipline problem in my life right now. I am not focusing!!
I've been just going in and out of school like a ghost. Just saying hi to some random familiar faces. Hostel friends and church friends are currently a constant and playing a huge part in my life right now. And I definitely feel absolutely blessed to have them. (God doesn't leave us alone, does he?)
So, I have been reconciling with God for the past few days. Sorting things out. Just praying that He will teach me how to surrender and let go. Just so that He can lead my life fully. Because I cant do this on my own anymore. I never should have. But now, I believe that He is going to bring me through this.
It takes time, and I'm gonna be there.
I'm sorry if I have neglected some people and things in my life.
That's especially for you, babe. I know you are getting crazy busy and stressed out and you probably need someone to talk you through it and boost some confidence, but I wasn't there as I promised. But just give me sometime to sort things out. And I trust God that it wont take too long to get my life back on path with His plan.
Sorry Mum for blasting at you. You probably never see this. But sorryy...

LIFE IS GOING TO BE FINE, REAL SOOOOOOON. (:
For now, I will just concentrate on getting the things I can do right. Like cleaning up my ROOM!

2008-07-09T22:04:00.002+08:00

Let's see, I've been in China for 9 days already. So far, it has been pretty enjoyable I guess. Considering I've shopping with Mom; which means totally no guilt buying a whole new wardrobe of clothes, and a bag full of jewelries. hehe. Should be able to survive with these clothes for the rest of the year(: yay. Also, meeting people at restaurants all over Beijing, one after another. The food is definitely awesome, but I probably accumulated about a litre of cooking oil in my body so far. I guess I need the fats huh? (And I do need a tan too. Everyone thinks I'm nuts)
So, just came back from having dinner with my grandfather (Dad's side), not exactly close, therefore it's the whole sit-and-smile routine all over again; a strategy I have recycled for years. Well, I did make an effort to connect with him, but it (clearly) hasn't been really successful. Another dinner with my aunt and "god uncle" tomorrow. By now, the whole "god uncle" idea wasn't a really good idea. sigh~ I end up acting as an excuse for bridging connections for my aunt. Not fun. Preparing for yet another session of sit-and-smile. :D Million dollar smile, baby. haha.

Despite the food and shopping, I'm still missing the peace in Melbourne. hehe. What can I do? I have been living in a house totally quiet (due to the Nuns who have been dictating in that place) and compared to where I am now, every other place I visit in Melbourne is a couple of decibels lower. But don't get me wrong. I'm liking it here, just need a longer time to adjust. (:
[Still missing Melbourne. Did I mention that already?]

Okay, now I am going to bed. Actually going to bed to watch Heroes. Absolutely adore it!! STORYTELLING AT ITS BESTEST BEST! whao~

2008-07-01T11:09:00.002+08:00

Whao~ After 13 hours of flight I'm back home. It's nice to be back... Being able to talk to my mum face to face till 3 am; about anything and everything under the sky(: My Life, My future, My past, My present... Its definitely an awesome feeling considering that motherly touch has been absent in my life for quite some time. The whole web cam thing just doesn't do our communication any justice! hehe.
But, I am still missing Melbourne. Miss going to Richmond AOG every other day to paint. Oh speaking of painting, I think Kay and I are overdosed with toxic fumes from the house paint. grrr... I guess it was worth it considering its a total blessing and honour to serve God, no? hehe. Check out facebook photos, and you will know what I am talking about! Anyway, back to being sentimental, I miss Melb!! hehe. And when its time to go back to Melb, I will miss home. Dang*

(Why is facebook not opening? ugh)

Okay, i'm seriously lazy now...

2008-06-13T23:38:00.002+08:00

Heylo! I can assure you that this blog has not been forgotten. (: Semester one comes to an end, and the journey was a blur. And I seriously do not want to stir up memories of the past months. I mean, there were some amazingly crazy times, but the bad ones were equally insane, just that its on the negative end of the spectrum. hehe. So simply to say, thank God for putting some awesome people beside me this a while, despite the fact that they were not people that I have interacted with a lot in the past. It's just so comforting to know that God has arranged people to be beside you to help you whenever you need it.
And also those people who are always there to cheer you up from a horrid day of revision. Sharon and Mollie have been keeping me smiling with their facebook messages. *squished muffins* What can be better thn that huh?
Norman and connect group prayers.

RUBHINNI ( this one gotta be a big one) my spiritual buddy! Always there to hear me rant about stuff probably no one in the house would understand. Feeding me with foooooood. mhmm.. Now that its her turn for exams, I probably have to serve her or something. hehe.

and then there's of course KAY!!!!! oh man, we practically go through identically same rollar coaster ride in regards to emotions, studies, attitude towards crappy revision. So, we were just dragging each other along, and we are both the first to finish! yayy. gonna plan out everything, and make full use of our time. But first, she is eyeing on my jeans.
Oh, and I was nearly drunk today, and she nearly had to carry me home today. Cos my oh-so-wise friend forced me to down a glass of champagne (free sampling) before we enter a restaurant. Empty stomach + alcohol + quick drinking= not good. I think I am going to get a hangover tonight. And I am suppose to wake up at 7.30 tomorrow to go for a morning walk and admire the amazing world God has created. But I dont know how I am going to do that, we'll see.

Tomorrow's schedule is filled to the brim. Compared to today, I was lazing around for 6 hours before I couldnt summon the strength to get myself out of the house. Pretty rewarding though- Cheap Levis and shoes... hehe.
Excited!!!!
See ya

2008-05-14T20:49:00.002+08:00

Hey there. Dropping by give a little update about my life.
I have finally survived my last round of assignments. It left me pretty drained, but I can't actually stop and rest, even though I did. However now I have to pick up the momentum again and rush for final exams. Whoo~ And it will be all overrrr... Life's been pretty peaceful, other than uni, it will be church(: Wednesday- Ignite, Saturday night service, Sunday morning service + Kid's Alive. Sweeet* So as time goes by, my hunger to grow in the Lord gets more and more. Yay(:
Okay, this post has taken me a long long time because I had to handle about 8 conversations at one time!! goodness. haha. So I will cut it down, and go to prayer requests!!
Dearest blog readers, Thank you for coming here(: Let's all join in prayer for our(my) loved ones, and let all Glory be to the Heavenly Father!
1) Pray for my Mum as she goes to church on sunday 18th May! Let God touch her heart and her life! Pray that she goes there with an open mind. Because the God I believe in is capable of creating miracles!
2) For Rubhi, Kay, Joanne and ME and all other students struggling for their studies and workload. May the Lord give us wisdom, concentration/focus and determination!
3) For the people in Szechuan who have lost their homes and loved ones. May the Lord lay his mercy, healing hands upon them and the place, so that the place can be restored as soon as possible.
4) Pray that the Lord may have mercy upon this world. Pray that possible natural disasters may not have a huge huge impact on any place. Japan might be getting a huge earthquake soon.

God Bless you all!
Have a good week. Will find time to blog moreee(:

2008-05-02T21:19:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile since I have stopped by, no? It's been peaceful recently, nothing fantastic happened, neither did any drastic events occur, Thank God(: I suppose its a period for me to settle down a little, and admire the little events that God put into my life that makes me smile. Its important to live in hope right? I am doing that now. Despite the due dates for assignments looming dangerously close, I still find time plan out some activties, and being involved in church and stuff. Not that they are some amazing events, but its more than enough for me to look forward to each new week(:
After watching tennis videos on youtube, I am so desperate to pick up my tennis racquet again to play some crazy tennis. And its harder than I thought. First is finding people and place to play (which thankfully I have somewhat settled that bit), but also having the strength to get back on court. The intensity of tennis isn't all that low, and considering stopping sports for such a long time, I seriously have no idea how I can even complete an hour of tennis. But I have been replaying the image of me standing on that court serving, smashing, running, whacking over and over again. Thats the last bit of passion for tennis lingering in me, and now its revived again(: I really really want to play!!!

Ignite-converted-to-Soul-Sisters sermon was... I dont exactly know how to put it. But Mary Forsythe certainly speaks with some 'magic'. I could really sense the Holy Spirit working in her. With her main theme as "knowing and finding who you truly are", it struck me, so hard. For a long long time, I have been telling people to be who they are. But then again, when I asked myself that question, Who am I? Every answer I gave myself started with "I think..." Do I really know who I am? Is it ever possible to know who I am? Eventually, everything she spoke about was so applicable in my life, and current situation...
So, today I prayed for something to happen. And I think it indirectly occurred, not in the way I wanted it to be, but close enough I suppose. Yet again, I had doubts. I had questions. I didnt have the courage to go ahead with it. Worst of all, I had excuses to keep me away from doing it.
I need courage and strength Lord!

Its gonna be fantastic week coming up!
I hope you will have one too(:

Praise the Lord.

Episode 2

2008-04-27T22:22:00.002+08:00

Kids Alive Ep 2.
Second time I'm doing this, and it's getting a little more comfortable each time. And I'm enjoying it, seriously. Getting to play around and go crazy with the kids is amazing. I mean it gets a little annoying sometimes, but somehow I managed ro overcome them pretty easily with a stare or a stern look on my face with "no!" scribbled all over it and stuff. haha. Praise the Lord(: And to add on to all that fun, getting to know some fantastic people who have been faithfully serving in church. It's just so inspiring to see how committed they are in serving, for God's glory, despite their hectic schedule. Wow~ Amazing amazing.
"It's just letting your inner 'kid' out"

2008-04-18T16:42:00.002+08:00

Today went by pretty smoothly(: Got up and planned my law essay, and I'm all ready to scribble my way through a 2000 word essay! whoo! Just that I havn't done it yet. Hehe. Cos I was occupied/distracted by origami! Its this sudden interest that sparked in me, so I ended up going through youtube for instructions, and digging out all used papers to fold them. I would say I was quite successful actually! Managed to master about 5 of them(: Its addictive. hah.
Praise the Lord, I managed to settle my "working with children" application. All I have to do is wait, and get my card. It all went well, at least I didn't have any lacking documents and needing to run in and out of the house to get stuff. But the photo-taking was disgusting. We weren't allowed to smile! Why? Cos it distorts your face. Gosh. And that guy used some poloroid camera, and it turned out horrible. Rubhi looked like she just got up, and I looked like I saw a ghost or something. Photo-taking: Not nice~
I bought boots today. Finally! Quoting from Rubhi: "fastest buy I have ever seen". Basically, I went into the shop, tried the boots and bought it. And all it took was 5 mins. Wow. Where did my "girly" personality go? Hm... But I'm satisfied! haha. A little guilty too though, considering Dad spent 70+ to air mail me some clothes, and now I'm spending extra to buy boots. Sigh~ Oh wells, its once in a while. (: Retail therapy!!
Baptism tomorrow at Richmond AOG at 5.30pm. Im excited, but unsure and nervous too. I don't know why.
I think I'm ready Lord Father. Do You think I am ready for You, Lord?
Let tomorrow be a miracle... <3

KIDS ALIVE

2008-04-13T13:25:00.002+08:00

Today's experience in Kid's Alive was just truly amazing! Its the first time I ever interact with kids, and really play with them. I am not a kiddy person you see, and I dont speak kiddy language. So, today was a huge step for me. Hehe. Rubhi and I wondered around the estate in hope to see some church friends, we ended up finding them because a whole bunch of kids were screaming their heads off in the van. While we were waiting for the second van to come back, we had to keep the kids occupied, so the ever so enthu Rubhi started to play with them. I was just standing there... HMMM? What do I do now... But after awhile, I realised out light they were, and I ended up picking up one of the kids and running around with her.
Sermon and Worship was great(: Lost Sheeps! Find them.
After service, thats when the real fun began. Feeding the kids hot dogs, thn they had some art and craft on one side, while "basketball" was on the other. And the room was like a MADHOUSE. Kids screaming, shouting, running etc. Most importantly, smiling:D and having fun.
Sundays maybe the kids' favourite day of the week, Kid's Alive may be the funnest thing they do during the week. Each week, they look forward to a day like this. Even me or anyone else look forward to something each week. With that, even the toughest week could be the most enjoyable and rewarding one.
For those who are feeling that days are boring and mundane, Live in Hope. Because even the smallest thing that happen each week that can make you smile, that's what you look forward to.

God creates little events that make me Smile. Every moment of my life, I will praise and thank Him. Because without Him, I am nothing...

Iloveyou. If only you could understand me. There are times when I can't express it. Sometimes its just a gut feeling. Probably I am not responding to what you accuse me of, not because I say its true/false, I don't even know it mayself.
It's just a gut feeling.
It's just a calling.

2008-04-10T09:14:00.002+08:00

I just received my acceptance, on the tram. Wow. God answers prayers at appropriate times. Just a minute before, I was wondering what He wants me to do this year. When I allowed my mind to float into the imaginary realm and beyond, I received an anonymous call. I didn't really take notice of it because I thought it was my parents as they were the only ones with unknown numbers, but the voice had a sydeny-aussie accent... That's when everything will begin.

As much as I am excited, I'm procrastinating. There are worries, troubles with this "mission" He is sending me on. I don't know whether I will have the courage to go ahead with it. And I know the possibility of me giving up this chance is immense. But this is going to be a test of my faith. If God brought me to this stage, and If this is what He really wants me to do, He will make a way. Because I will draw out all the Faith I have in Him, trusting Him that He will lead me there.

Wait and See.
I will be there...

2008-04-07T20:46:00.002+08:00

Hello World. hehe. So, I managed to catch High School Musical on Ice yesterday, many thanks to Rubhi and her aunt(: It was kind of like a spontaneous decision. It was by chance. Anyhows, walked to Vodafone Arena, and I realised I was walking into the home of Australian Open. Oh my gosh. *screams* I pass by that place every single day, and not one time did I step in there. So, the show was not bad. probably 3 out of 5(: Except "Troy" the skater kept falling over. Hurhur. And the screams in the stadium was so high pitched I don't think it belongs to the natural world. Its not due to how handsome the skaters were, but because it was mostly young kids, whose voice hasn't broke. *squeeeeaaals*

I actually appreciate the existence of a breadth subject in the New melbourne model, because it makes my ever so mundance course sound a little more attractive. For instance, my friends ask me what I am doing now, I say COMMERCE, in the most enthusiastic way I could. Then I start listing my 4 subjects, Economics (ack!), Accounting (ack!), Statistics (ACK-ER!), and Law (WOW!) And the conversation that led on seem to sound like I was a law student. Gosh. When can I ever get my commerce student identity? sigh~

How am I suppose to ever believe what you say, when you don't even believe in what you say. I made those mistakes before. But I am living through and experiencing every thing I said in the past, and truly believing in it. What about you?

2008-04-03T21:24:00.003+08:00

A breakthrough is coming...

Did you know how much I wanted to share a "testimonial" with you today? Because I believe a breakthrough for me is coming. You saw me raise up my hand that day, you asked me why, I said that I dont know. This is why. Today is probably the answer. Today, God touched me in the slightest way. But I could feel it. And I think a journey that He wants me to walk is coming.
I wanted to share this feeling with you so badly. A christian friend who goes to church with me, listened the same sermons as me. That's you. But everytime I sought for a chance to talk to you in private, you had someone there. This isn't your fault, and I guess this is what you want, meeting new people, having fun. Thats cool(: Then again, when I had one chance to talk to you, I cant seem to express myself. That's my bad.
Anyway, I just hope you have spend some crazy time with new people. :D
But when you need a friend who can sit with you and listen to you in the future (probably long long time from now), I will still be there to help you.

For now, I probably have to rephrase it in a completely different way to share my joy with someone else...

2008-04-02T22:00:00.002+08:00

Just a quicky update of my first few days back at school after a crazy easter break(: Things aren't going so well, considering the break broke my momentum, and not the luckiest thing happened to me on April's Fool (which I shan't elaborate)
But nonetheless, I felt God speaking to me through this incident. That is, I have to lose "everything" that I thought were important, before I could learn to fully let go and surrender the things that truly matter. And today during Ignite, once again, I learnt that God has already given me whatever I need for Him to work in me; to allow me to accomplish anything. All I need is faith, and not fear.
This isn't easy for me, not the 'faith' bit, but the lack of control over my life. People have told me that I was a strong leader, over the years. Somehow that is starting to take a toll on my spiritual life. I have always wanted some control over what I do, but because of that, God can't do what He needs to do.

The whole time in Singapore, I have been working and striving for my own personal glory/pride/pleasure. It's time for me to do something for others(: Despite the fact that I love/adore dance, I am not committing as much time as I can into it. I don't know why, maybe because of studies? That shouldn't be an excuse, I shouldn't have an excuse at this point in my life, cos whatever I do is for the Glory of God. So, I was reflecting, and I thought about all the information I am getting about helping in church, going on mission trips, going for voluntary work trips. Probably thats what I should be focusing on(: First with the churh; there's this Kid's Alive thing, basically playing with kids. Personally, I am not fascinated by them like some people, but considering that I have been working with people my age or older all my life, so right now, might as well release some inner kid emotions. haha. I mean you don't really see me speaking kiddish language right. Second, I really really want to go on a mission/voluntary trip with Uni or Church(: It will be so funnnn! If I meant to go, God will make me available, no matter what time, or what I am doing. Praise the Lord.

I neeeeeeed activities OTHER THAN STUDYING in my life. Without them, I am actually not focusing on my schoolwork because I will think that I have loads of time to waste.
Hm, lets see, hung out at church for Ignite and talk to people. Which was SOOOOOOOOOO fun. haha. The people there are great(: And there's this (fancy) dinner on friday night at Mosskito (thats what they call it). I should be going, because its a good time to know more church people. Well, if it was in the past, I would have said no, and give an excuse that it's too late.
We will see...
Have a good week. (: Cheerios

EASTER MADNESS

2008-03-31T09:01:00.003+08:00

I realised that since end of last year till present, I have shocked quite a number of people with my age. I mean "WHY?" I mean height could a factor, but no matter how tall I get, my face will show the truth, no? Do I look that old. sigh.
PS. People think I am 20+ *faints*

Overall, easter break was fun fun fun. But at the same time I did manage to get some work done, which is amazing. Hehe. So, the first half of easter break was for rushing my assignments and essays. Oh yes, Many Thanks to Jo, Rubhi and all other friends who helped me with Econs, and what not. Without you guys, my essays will probably be trashed or something. Anyhows, the next half started to be crazier, especially in the House. We ended up playing Hide and seek AND freeze and melt combined. Oh gosh, it was madness. Running, hiding in the weirdest places, screaming, shouting. HAHAHA. It was amazing. And during this period, I managed to know some people better, which is probabaly the most important part of this whole game thing. So, Thank God for all the amazing opportunities(:

exactly 3 months from now, I will be going home! Whoots~
But for now, its some hardcore mugging.
I need to be on track.
I am considering committing more time in some other activities. Hm...

2008-03-24T21:01:00.002+08:00

My internet has gone bonkers, and its ridiculously slow.
So during this beautiful easter break, I am flooded with essays, assignments, revisions and tutorial work. All stuffed up in a nice easter egg for me. How nice. Thank God there's people accompanying me through these disgusting work. First its Rubhi, always with me in the first floor common room. People think that we are studying the same thing. Hehe. Anyway, then it was Keyne, Kay, Natsuki, Genny and Renata popping in once in a while. Had lots of fun laughing at random things. Hah. Rubhi is once again crowned craziest kid once again, as always. Gosh, I shan't embarass her here. hehe. Ruins her reputation.
Oh, we spent quite a while camwhoring ytd with her webcam. Cos it was super speed, so we started making real life cartoon effect. So funny. hehe. Today we were learning how to speak English. And I wonder what is going to happen tomorrow. (: hm...
Cooked for Rubhi today, turned out quite alright considering I haven't cooked for a year. Yay. She's like an amateur trinity kid, freaking out for term 1 exams(its worth 5%), calling tute as "toote". hah. Hang in there, buddy. You will survive. Its only 2 days. compared to a whole full week or maybe even 2 during term 3 and 4, this is nothing. Will be praying for you. I wonder if she sees this. (oh yes, her internet died). Oh wells, I am just talking to myself.

As you can see, I am getting more comfortable in my hostel this year than last year. So much more actually. I am making some fun, cool friends, but also some that I can share my thoughts with, friends that I can trust. And that's amazing. So Thank God. Also currently attending Richmond AOG which is just 5 mins walk away, and it has amazing worship and service. This really fulfill what God teaches us. When we learn to let go, and let him lead the way, the path ahead of me will be the best I can ever imagine. I am starting, trying to let go, its not an easy thing, but I will try. If God can create miracles, the very least I can do is to let him do it.

I suppose sometimes it is expectation that is stopping us from letting go. Because letting go means I am no longer in control and I dont know what to expect. No doubt living in fear is living without faith, but there's always a bit of me that is hoping that I can get the thing I want immediately. This is probably the reason why sometimes I fall hard. When I expect too much out of something, like frienships, it just doesn't turn out the way you want and expected it to be. Especially in the surrounding I am in, making friends isnt easy, making truthful friends; people that will stand by you, is almost impossible. So when desperation starts to overcome you, everyone you meet and say Hi to, you have this strong hope and desire that he or she will be your great friend for life. Thats when expectation overides reality, and when you do everything by your will and power. That's when God is no longer in control. And that's when I screw up.

I am hoping to change.
In God I trust. Walking in Faith.

Just a little piece of my mind in these dreadfully hot days

2008-03-16T21:05:00.002+08:00

Sunday morning! Church at Richmond AOG. Worship was good, the sermon wasn't exactly that appealing, I shan't comment further on that, its based on individual opinion. Anyhows, after service they had another mini worship and prayer time. At that time, that place was really filled with the power of the Holy Spirit. Most people started to speak in tongues, shaking/trembling and all. Thats not what I get to see every week in previous churches. ...
And I spent the rest of the afternoon attempting to do my tutorials. I finally finished them all (i think), I was so proud of myself because I conquered stupid Microsoft Excel, and completed my QM tute question! whoots. But that concentration didn't last long, and ended up playing guitar on PS2. That's sad. And then off for a jog with Rubhi, I have no idea why I did that, I just did. Its been a long time since I put on track shoes for a jog. Wow. I do have some good influence here. hehe. After that was So you think you can dance and Centre Stage, and some random singing with the piano was stuffed in between these activities. (I am rattling. its all because of the heat). Recently, whatever brainless/mindless things we say, we always blame the heat. hah. I wonder if I can get special consideration for that for my assignments. hehe. (:
Oh Oh, I tried eating indian food with my hands. Rubhi wasn't exactly the best teacher in the world on how to eat, and I made a whole mess on my plate, but I managed to finish the food. Aren't you people proud of me? Its not easy okay. Rubhi did get a good laugh whilst watching me eat. Wait till I torture her with chopsticks. muahah
That's all for now. Tata.

I really wish he could talk to me...
miss him loads.

Save the last dance for me...

2008-03-15T08:28:00.002+08:00

Just came back from the market, and I bought heaps of fruits(: They should get me through my lunch during the week. hehe.
Getting extremely hot now. Not that yesterday was cool either. Temperatures are getting up to 40 degrees, and its dry, so it practically an oven. ack. So, I came up with this brilliant idea of a movie night, with tubs of ice cream and Isaballe (its a fan by the way), about 8 or 9 of us crowded around my little tiny computer watching Sweeney Todd. Its my nth time watching Sweeney Todd (but I am never sick of it. LOVE Johnny Depp), so basically some of started singing along, while the rest get freaked out by the slicing of the throat, and blood splurting everywhere. haha. It was hilarious, but it wasn't when one of them actually cried. Oops. Therefore everything had to be stopped for a while, switch on the lights, comfort her a little, and then, it was a rollarcoaster ride again. Come on, it was rated M18 in Singapore, its got to have its scary bits. Even I got freaked out a little by the amount of blood and close-up of the killing, considering I have already been numbed regarding such things, I am CSI and Bones maniac, you see. (:
Anyhows, I realized easter break lasts for a week. A whole week when we only into our 4th week of university. I barely got the momentum going. ugh. For now, I have to complete my tutorials and read up. Getting lost during class real soon. pfffftttt*

2008-03-09T18:20:00.004+08:00

What can be greater when you have a personal photographer taking photos for you on a road trip to great ocean road? haha. Just kidding, THANKS ROSEMARY. She's got her set of photos in my camera. Just posting the result of camwhoring at the twelve apostles. We got bored after a while, so we started taking spastic photos. hah(: The trip was fun! Not that the weather was perfect for viewing the amazing scenery, but I'm grateful. hehe. At least they didnt starve us considering how much we paid them. Muffins, and subways(: mhmm...

So that was yesterday, and today, Rubhi and I went to 2 churches! wheeee~ AOG and planetshakers. Both had their amazing bits... Praise the Lord. But no doubt both were an eye-opener. WOW O_o Especially when we went to Planetshakers, it feels like we just hopped out of a well or something, being so fascinated with all the sound and video effects and lightings. haha.

Busy weekend! Start rushing the week worth of work tomorrow. HOHO(:

2008-03-01T13:39:00.002+08:00

"Calling"

The sun is going down on me
As she surrenders to the sea
So steal the night and fly with me
I'm calling, I'm calling

The moon is high on me and you
Is my message breaking through?
Darkened skies that once were blue are falling
So hear me now

Calling out your name
Burning on the flame
Played the waiting game
Hear my calling
Hear my calling

(Forever and ever)

Through distant lands and mountain streams
My river's running through your dreams
There's an ocean in between
Forever and never

Chasing shadows through the years
I whisper softly to my dear
Be sure to know that I am here
Forever

So hear me now
Calling out your name
(A wish that could come true)
Burning on the flame
(I'm reaching out to you)
Played the waiting game
Hear my calling
Hear my calling

Whispers in the air
I dream you into life
Here a lover's prayer
I pray for you tonight
I can feel you there
Hear my calling
Hear my calling

No man is an island
That's an empty sin
Discovery is a journey
Just have to let me in

Calling out your name
(A wish that could come true)
Burning on the flame
(I'm reaching out to you)
Played the waiting game

Calling out your name
(A wish that could come true)
Burning on the flame
(I'm reaching out to you)
Played the waiting game
Hear my calling
Hear my calling

Whispers in the air
(I dream you into life)
Hear a lover's prayer
(I can feel you there)
Hear my calling
Hear my calling

No man is an island (A wish that could come true)
That's an empty sin (I'm reaching out to you)
So steal the night and fly with me
I'm calling
Hear my calling

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Brings back some amazing, beautiful memories. Those days that went by so simply, without any complications. Browsing through the photos and videos of those days, it really put a smile on my face no matter how bad the day is.

And I can say that

I am missing them so much. So much.

I wished days weren't that difficult, I wished days weren't that complicated.

But, I pray that these days were meaningful.

Human emotions stops me from not blaming anyone for what had happened, but for some reason, I felt God teaching me a lesson. A lesson that I would have to learn it the hard way. This will probably bring my level of maturity to a new level, but I missed those naiive thoughts. Because living with that, days wouldn't be so tiring, so paranoid-ish.

With this new encounter/event, my world seem to open a new door. Introducing me to the uglier side of people, a darker side of life. This certainly isn't something I want, but to grow, this is the only way I guess.

2008-02-20T17:20:00.002+08:00

I have finally granted myself with the luxury of having internet access in my own room, and that burnt a hole in my pocket. gosh. But this is the only way to minimize the pain and agony of home sickness. Its excruciating. Okay, maybe I am exaggerating but I just dont feel good. The simple reason is because I miss the people in China, and of course the ones in Singapore.
I have been trying to search for every trace that reminds me of them. Probably this is just a phase, but I am certainly not enjoying myself right now. On the bright side, I am sure that life would be so much better this year than last year when I first arrived Melbourne. Friends. (: Other than that, I keep reminding myself that I would be going home in 3 or 4 months time when winter break comes by. Counting down...

Day one back in Melbourne. Melbourne Airport is seriously slowwwwww. I spent about 2.5 hours trying to queue up and get out. I was one of those luckier ones. ackkk... Got back to the hostel, slept like a pig. Ran down to the bank in the rain to settle my account. Slept like a pig again. Ran down to Coles to grab some stuff. Blah blah blah.
Oddly, I have this strong urge to read. Hm... whyyyy?

I miss you. I seriously do.

"Sometimes there's only one thing left to say.
P.S I LOVE YOU"

2008-02-16T23:02:00.002+08:00

Time flies. This seems like a cliche, doesn't it. But thats the only way this trip home could be described. I will reach another place in 24 hours. Somewhere other than home. Parting with loved ones, moving on in life in some foreign society is probably and inevitably part and parcel of my life now. This may be a blessing, wouldn't it? Now I know what "home", "family" etc really means. I suppose what Jo defines home is quite appropriate. It is a place where they understand you, but the most basic thing is that you feel comfortable; like you belong there. Now I know where I belong. But after awhile, I realize that leaving and seperating wouldn't get me further away from where I want to be, instead its bringing me closer. I believe that one day, I get to choose where I want to be. Thats a blessing.

But nonetheless, its not the best thing in the world to be parting with a place you love, but this is probably the best reason I can give myself to stay strong, and say a happy goodbye to my loved ones; with a big hug and a promise that I will work hard, and I will be home soon(:
I really hope this happens...

I know God will probably help me with that, because He answered my prayers today! I got to dance, meet friends&relatives, AND try out Wii(: (and some other stuff I dont know how to explain) Amazing day(: WHAO.

To you:
you might never ever see this, but I'm writing it down nonetheless. you taught me so much these few months, and I am very grateful for that. I thank God that I not only met you, but for all the chances to get to know you out of class. The lessons, lunchtime chat, gossiping during breaks, creating a 'revolution' in school, (and events that happened today...) that last lesson, that last dance, that last chat, and that walk, that smile, and all the countless scoldings, complaints, jokes. Everything brings back a smile on my face. Those memories of you and all the other amazing friends I met because of your lessons made this trip home so much more than what I can ask for. Seriously so much so much more. Probably some people may not accept you, life may be tough on you. But I respect/admire your talent (just like all the other people we mixed around with.) There are some things that I can't express. But what you asked me just now, I wanted to scream a BIG YES right into your face, but I just want to say THANK YOU, from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU.
I will be back soon, thats a promise(:

This time home, I tried activites that I never taught I would fall in love with. Like skiing, dancing etc. Not that I will be pro at them, but at least I found some new interests other than tennis! :D Really really hope that I can continue with them when I go back. <3

Counting down...
Posting this bit first. I will think of what else to write later.

HARBIN

2008-01-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

Just returned from Harbin 2 days ago. And I'm sick. Down with a fever. How nice. Anyhow, the trip was certainly de-lovely(: Met some amazing, cool people, ate some "weird" food, froze in the temperature of -30 degrees, but best of all I LEARNT TO SKI! hah. Skiing was definitely fun fun fun!!
Now that I have seen more than enough of snow, I dont need it to snow in Beijing anymore. hehe.
Sorry for this very very brief entry, I'm currently in a really dizzy wizzy state.
Will update later(:

2007-12-23T21:53:00.000+08:00

I *HEART*<3 WALTZ...
and probably salsa. I still dont get the hang of samba, and I have no idea what is going on with rumba. Additionally, I dont see the difference between the two. Jazz and swing are pretty fun dances. Argentine Tango is another beautiful dance. I have no comment about Flamenco. Hip Hop is just, Hip Hop. Hm... Paso Doble I am not sure yet. And uh there are some random few.

Anyhows, I am so freaking tired. 9 hours a day gets extremely exhausting. I wouldnt say I am drained because what I am doing now is my choice, but I do need some determination to get through with it because I have somewhat lost that kind of stamina to be running around the entire day, non-stop. I dont even remember being so busy in Aussie. (:

I have to bath my dog now. CIAO.

You are telling me I'm fat?

2007-12-17T21:53:00.000+08:00

Class today wasn't the most enjoyable thing I'd like to do early in the morning. I mean, its way out of my comfort zone. Going crazy, acting in drama is one thing, but asking me to do what I did this morning was way off. I know I have to let go of myself to reach another level of confidence, but this step IS difficult. Asking me be like that is like asking him to be shy.
In addition, I was told that I am fat. T-A-L-L does exist in my vocabulary, but F-A-T certainly doesn't. Well, if I compare to other kids in my class, DUH I'm fat. Those kids are like a bamboo stick, with a figure (undeniably). *dang* Y'know what, I will NOT conform to the views of these people, neither of this world! Just from a short conversation with these "models"/"model wannabes", I realized how superficial they were. Within that short convo, their views, questions, conclusions were completely/entirely based on the physical appearance. Its sad. Because there is nothing I can say to get them to think beyond what it seems to be.
Allow me to say that I am not a model wannabe, and the people I am talking about does not mean all models, its just the lot that I have met so far.

P.S I know the above post is kind of ambiguous. To know more/in detail msn me. You do realize I am online the entire day(:
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I spent nearly 7 hours online today. Mainly going through youtube for So You Think You Can Dance videos from all 3 seasons (Amazing numbers), and V for Vendetta, CSI behind the scenes. Facebook. Blogging. IMDB for movies worth watching and ones that I have missed out during the year. Therefore, I am seeing *stars* in front of me. *blinkblink*

I feel "soooooooooo sorry" for Jo, because she can't get a.... HAMSTER for Christmas.
Jo, I can't believe you asked me to pray for a freaking hamster for Christmas, also known as the Gift of Life. A H-A-M-S-T-E-R. Are you kidding me?
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Classes start again tomorrow morning. God, please let it be a painless, yet productive one.

2007-12-16T18:48:00.000+08:00

My first week back home has come to an end (I'm in Beijing by the way), and everything is going well, exhausting but I can handle it! Weather here is still bearable, it hasn't come to the serious winter days yet.
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Oh by the way, I'm into Melbourne University. To God be the Glory! The score was way out of my expectation considering the crappy results I received in Term 2. Anyhows, I am satisfied.
I thank God not only for these results, but also for 2007. The most amazing year thus far.
I thank God for the people (friends and teachers) who were there with me this whole year. Putting a smile on my face when the going gets tough, and sharing a smile with me when good times come.
I thank God for new found friends. Getting to know more amazing, inspiring people.
I thank God for the ever-so-supporting parents. They are the most precious, and awesome people in my life.
I thank God for every miracle He created this year.
I thank God for every event, good or bad. Because each of them taught me a lesson, and brought me closer back to Him
I thank God for Hosanna Church and Gina for bringing me there.
I thank God that I could still remain in contact with friends in Singapore whom I have not seen for a year.
In all, I thank God that I can't list down everything, and how much He has done for me this year because its countless!

PRAISE THE LORD, AND ALL THE GLORY AND HONOUR BE TO THE LORD ALMIGHTY.
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Weekends gave me a break from modelling classes (which is absolutely exhausting. I just managed to recover from the aching.) And I end up shopping for shoes for my class. For the first time ever, EVER, I am going for those with the highest heels (8-10cm). With that, I hit about 2m. But, there isnt my size, DANG! So I had to make do with a pair of heels of about 6cm.
Anyhows, I feel like toppling over while wearing those killer heels. I mean, my centre of gravity is THIS FAR *stretches out arms* off the ground. When I stood beside my mum, she feels like I am floating beside her. -__- (I am not that light. I am "overweight" as compared to people in my class)

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The only argument my mum has for me when I want to look older/matured.
Me: Mum, I want to curl my hair
Mum: No. Straight hair is better, you look younger.
Me: Mum, I am not a kid anymore.
Mum: Ya, but you are still underage.

*slaps head*
One big reason why turning SEVENTEEN is U-S-E-L-E-S-S.
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For the next two months, allow me to indulge in the luxury of a mother's touch which has been in absence for the past 10 months.
Photos are up on Facebook. If you don't have facebook,

GET ONE! *evil smile*

2007

2007-12-03T07:31:00.000+08:00

"Remember, remember the 5th of November, the gun powder treason and plot. I know of no reason why the gun powder treason should ever be forgot." -V
V for Vendetta. FREEDOM FOREVER.

John Mayer's 'Waiting on the World to change'
Me and all my friends
We're all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing and
There's no way we ever could
Now we see everything that's going wrong
With the world and those who lead it
We just feel like we don't have the means
To rise above and beat it

So we keep waiting
(waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
(waiting)
Waiting on the world to change

It's hard to beat the system
When we're standing at a distance
So we keep waiting
(waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
Now if we had the power
To bring our neighbors home from war
They would have never missed a Christmas
No more ribbons on their door
And when you trust your television

What you get is what you got
Cause when they own the information, oh
They can bend it all they want

That's why we're waiting
(waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
(waiting)
Waiting on the world to change

It's not that we don't care,
We just know that the fight ain't fair
So we keep on waiting
(waiting)
Waiting on the world to change

And we're still waiting
(waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
(waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
One day our generation
Is gonna rule the population
So we keep on waiting
(waiting)
Waiting on the world to change

Now we keep on waiting
(waiting)
Waiting on the world to change

Waiting on the world to change(x4)

Awesome song and movie, containing ideas so relevant to this world/society.
Waiting, just waiting...

2007-11-07T11:34:00.000+08:00

Trinity Ball is finally over, and its time for me to study. 2 weeks more to exams, and my revision has barely scrap the surface. Thats bad.
anyway, first, i need to post a big shoutout to EAN! THANK YOU SOOO MUCH FOR WALKING ME AND TAHNEE HOME!!!! (: JO you and I will definitely meet up during the hols in singapore(:
I need to do HOI, Lit plans, revive my dying maths 2 and maths 1 knowledge. But first PANICK FOR EAP PPT!

2007-10-31T11:45:00.000+08:00

God is truly truly amazing. He created yet another miracle this morning. Not that it was some huge matter, but He sure made my day. Despite having merely 5 hours of sleep because of some problems, and also studying, I feel really good today. So, thank God for that. Told you every day was a miracle, hehe. Okay, fine, i only told one person about that. Anyways, trinity ball is coming really really soon. Excited, yet nervous! I really really want it to turn out well. I will pray really hard. And I will get people to pray with me(:
I need to be more productive with my studies! *screams* Exams are in 20 days. Thats it. WHOOTS!

2007-10-17T11:38:00.000+08:00

A new term commences. This term is going to be quick, crazy and busy. 5 weeks of classes, 2 weeks of exams and my trinity journey comes to an end. Among those weeks, I have Ball preparations, Trinity Ball, Drama exams, a whole lot of mugging to do. I will survive this term a lot better. I know I can. Because of new-found friends who will support my through, and most importantly, I put all my FAITH and TRUST in Jesus Christ. Amen!
I will fight my through and then I can go home proudly, and say I MADE IT! (: I dont know when I am going home though. hehe. So, wait and see!
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Selling tickets is getting on my nerves. Bugger.
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Oh gosh, as I count the the number of days I have left before going home, I miss my family and friends so much moreeee! ahh.. Thank God for maintaining the friendship between YOU GUYS! *screams*
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Okay, my post is starting to sound like a random forum. Sorry, I have lost the ability to think straight while blogging. I just blurt out everything. hehe.
For now, I will worry about HOI debate, accounting essay and assignment, ticket sales, revision, drama, and settle my accomodation next year. Not a lot, right~
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oh yes, I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE! AHHHHHH.
LOVE LOVE LOVE NEIL, LACEY and LAUREN! (: (:

Am I a little outdated?

2007-10-01T09:38:00.000+08:00

When I have the time to reply everyone, no one talks. When I hardly touch the computer, people start flooding my tagboard. sigh. Anyhows, yay!
JOANNE: Oh gosh. Never mind. Just send me emails. And I still want that letter. You should know how to send it this time. tsk tsk. Nice talking to you yesterday. Hope your promos will go well!

PRIS: Haha. poor JC kids. heh. I am going back at the end of the year. But I wont tell you when. hehe(: Anyway, all the best for promos!

SONIA: Do you ever pick up your phone? Im fine here. Hope you are doing well in there too! =)

SAM: HELLO!

GILLIAN: I dont have internet access in my home. I have to travel miles to get to school to use the internet. hehe. Anyway, its holiday, so I dont go to school that often. Updates will be coming soooooon.

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Im entering the last and final term of Trinity in a week's time. Wow. I manage to survive term 3, the longest term in the year. It wasn't exactly the best time of my life, but I'm glad I made it through. Thank God.
Term 4 is gonna be really quick, 5 weeks of classes, 2 weeks of exams and Thats it. And I am on my way to University (Hopefully!) Boom! That's fast.
As usual, my holidays havent really been that productive. I managed to finish things that I dont really need to rush, but I have yet to touch the assignments that I need to complete asap. I love doing stuff like that, dont I? (:
Cant update much because I have dozens of things I need to complete before I run off for meeting. And I have 8 windows opened on my computer:
Monash University (Uni application)
Facebook (Just for the fun of it)
Singapore airlines (to book my flight)
Blog (To reply the tags)
Hotmail (check emails, its overflowing!)
Trinity Portal
Google (for my assigments!)
Trinity Residential College!

Yes, its bad to multi-multi-task, but I cant help it! UGH.

2007-09-14T09:27:00.000+08:00

Don't i just adore my drama group? Drama drama drama! <3

Exams coming up. Thank God for the strength and concentrate He's given me, to keep me going(:
Amen.

2007-09-10T08:32:00.000+08:00

This was taken at about 10pm, when every one is *this* close to just sit at Gratten and fall asleep. So before that could happen, FSSC went a little nuts. Afterall, that day was CRAZY! Best way to put a beautiful fullstop to such a memorable event. K-SCOPE TALENT QUEST 2007(: Proudly brought to you by Trinity College's very own FSSC! I *heart* them loads.

My photoshoot has finally been finalized after going through dozen times of editting. Cant way for the album to be printed. *yay*

Drama performance is OVER. Not in exactly the way I wanted it to be though. FREAKING SORE THROAT. darn darn darn.
Ohwells, for now, exams! *screams* I am looking forward to school, nonetheless(:

Hymne a L'Amour

Faith

2007-09-03T08:27:00.000+08:00

God answered my prayer. K-scope talent quest was a huge success. WHAO. its definitely a very very rocking, memorable night(: Despite being physically exhausted after the event, i feel more energised to work even harder to make the annual ball an even bigger success. So, WATCH OUT!

Stupid facebook. grrr...

anyways, church was goooood(: really meaningful.
HAVE FAITH! HAVE FAITH that God will provide.
He has already created enough miracles in my life for me to trust Him with my life, my dreams.
But, its i'm still doubting. WHY? WHY? WHY?

NEW START!

2007-08-27T08:13:00.000+08:00

NEW WEEK! YAY! BIG WEEK. EXCITING WEEK. INSANE WEEK. yes. crazy events are going to start this week! Talent Quest, Full dress rehearsals, revision... whooooo~ Fortunately I feel energized to start the week, unlike last week which was a disaster. Its probably HOI. grrr.. Anyhows, Thank God for getting me to church yesterday. It was great. Managed to meet lots of wonderful people. (: Sermon was simple yet so relevant in my life. Yay! Praise the Lord for all that He've done in my life!

Crazy weeeeeeeeeeeeek begins... NOW.

Hopefully i can upload some photos later in the week.

2007-08-20T08:26:00.000+08:00

Once again, I survived a week of school. And now I am beginning another one. I feel Absolutely drained. But I have no idea why. Well, probably because of the overwhelming things to do- practices, homework, essays, rehearsals. I used to be able to sustain that amount of work, but now, for some reason, I feel exhausted. Damn it! WHY?!

Sunday. Melbourne University Open Day was so crowded and I had to squeeze through the crowd to collect every other pamphlet I see in the Commerce Faculty. And Financial Mathematics happened to fall under Actuarial Studies. DARN. Okay, never mind, you wont know what I am fustrated about. Because I dont even know it myself. On a brighter note, I completed my HOI essay. And now, I am into the editting process. In a week, I will be essay FREE! *cheers* But then again, i still have thousand and one things that needs to be completed.

Wake up Wake up! Its a new weeeeeeeeeek!

I think too much.

BUSYYY!!

2007-08-14T06:50:00.000+08:00

GOSH. I forsee a very very hectic month coming up. Drama performance, essays, exams, Talent quest rehearsals!! *screams* I will pray hard that God will bring me through this quite painlessly(:

sorry wont be able to update too long and frequently. will definitely find time. but for now, ACCOUNTING! grrr

2007-08-06T13:59:00.000+08:00

I finally find myself in a quiet computer lab. I haven't been away from noise/sound for quite a while. Even at home. Because of the lousy sound-proof walls, I can basically hear every single word people say when they stand at my door without ANY difficulty because certain people who come by happen to be very loud. Which can be rather unbearable when you are either trying so hard to write your HOI essay or when you trying to concentrate on the book in front of you. Damn. But oh well, I can't be bothered. I choose to ignore. Let's just hope that my level of tolerance remains at it is.
Bugger. Bugger. Bugger.

I am falling into a bad mood AGAIN. I don't know why. But at least it won't be as bad as the previous time. ack. This sucks. 15 weeks more. Come on Xinyue, you can get through that.
Due to certain change in my plans, I think I can get home a little sooner than before(: I hope. I hope.
Gosh. I miss JO, PRIS, SONIA and gang. AHHHHHH.

JO! 2/3 MORE DAYS. YAY!

2007-08-05T13:59:00.000+08:00

Devoured Harry Potter: Deathly Hallows within 2 days.
Other than being a little long winded, this book is wow!
Page-turner, no doubt. But the characters and their emotions felt so real...

Finding excitement out of nothing...

2007-08-01T10:57:00.000+08:00

Hello again. Today's wednesday and I am half way through the week. and Thursday and Friday are gonna be quick because they are really fun days. so YAY! (Clearly as you can see, I am recovering from those horrid days. Big thanks to those who prayed for me. LOVE YOU GUYS!)

Anyway, I really think best friends minds think a like. Yesterday I called Jo, and asked her for her address and she grumbled about me not remembering her address. *blink blink* and the next thing she asked me was, how long does mails take to reach Melbourne. At that moment, we both know what each other's up to. Because something special is coming up. *screams*
JO: you know what to wear on that day, dont you. Okay, maybe you cant. but I can(: hehe.
"Look! a walking Lime."
anyhows, I MISS YOU TRUCKLOADS! I will find time to ring you again! yay. and next time, sprint out of the library.

Nothing much for now. still waiting for my photos. grrr....

2007-07-30T10:42:00.000+08:00

Hello. Just a quick post specially for those who bugged me for my pictures. Here's a few of them. I haven't changed much, mind you. You people have to post yours too. Especially JO (I dun need to see your legs), PRIS and Sonia (i wonder how... hmm...).
Yup. More to come I suppose. Wait till I get the photos I have been waiting for. =) Some of you know already. hehe.
Anyway miss you guys.

School's been quite endurable so far. And there is finally something to work on in FSSC, DRAMA is still the best! Gosh, you have no idea how crazy we were last week. *laughs. Cant wait for drama this week. yay.

A new week. 2 full weeks down. 3rd on the way. 16 weeks more to go.
God, be with me(:

Expression.

2007-07-27T08:51:00.000+08:00

Going to make this quick, and library is starting to be flooded with "hardworking" people.. And lesson is starting soon. Bugger.
ANYWAY, I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS JO, PRIS, SONIA, SANYA AND GANG SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH.
I missed their gatherings, I missed Sonia's birthday party, I missed Speech day, I missed all the dozens of calls we used to exchange every other time, I missed EVERYTHING!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Hey you guys,
just want to say I MISSSSS YOU GUYS ALOT. and i mean every single word I said. really miss you guys alot alot alot. =(

okay, I need to concentrate. Because thats the only way its going to get me pass this whole time, and get me back to the people I miss and love, sooner.

CIAO!

2007-07-17T13:40:00.000+08:00

Returning from a can't-ask-for-anything-more life was terribly awful. Probably that adjective can't do what I feel now any 'justice'. Its just horrible. Broke down again and again. And I cant pin point why....
The only thing that is keeping me sane is the time each day I talk to God and mum. That's it.

Its just another bumpy ride that went went from bad to worse, isn't it?

Flooded with words. But...

2007-06-28T11:57:00.000+08:00

I dont know where to start. After being pathetically deprived from internet access due to several reasons, I finally got my hands on the keyboard and trying comprehend the signal my mind is trying to send. I am just overwhelmed with the things I need to rant, scream, share, grumble, be joyous about. So here it goes...

Now I understand what Jason meant by "the Great Move-out Disaster". Because I had to experience it on that very day. Before that, my room was like a junkyard. And when I got there, to my greatest dismay, my boxes gave way and everything was scattered in the car boot, and when I took out the other box, everything went on the floor. At that moment, it really did resemble a mini refugee camp. Absolutely disgusting. Ugh. Finally, after great efforts, I moved everything into the student house and settled down in my doorless home.
Australia's power socket resembles a sad little face, or probably a face that you can almost hear it going 'awwww'. That's the thing I have been staring at everytime before I sleep. Yes, I am sleeping on the floor/mattress, at a little isolated corner of the student house. Not bad actually- warm and cosy! But it makes studying so difficult because I will be walking all over the place every night in search for a place where no one is watching TV, and there's a table for me. So, every night I would find myself sitting in the quiet dining hall doing my work (Bad news eh, Jo?) Which is actually not allowed according to the Student House's rule book. Okay, I did not memorize the book, I received a really startled look from Iris when I told her I like reading rule books and kind of remembering them. Can't help it. The personality of a future lawyer. *laughs* Just kidding.

Anyhows, exam week was quick, but painful. After every paper, my heart sank deeper and deeper into the bottomless pit, just like the one in 300 where the threw defective babies in. Yup, that's how I felt. Till the extent that I broke down on my second last paper. But I did manage to pick myself up thanks to the comforting messages I received from my parents, and the ever so awesome blessing from God. Thus, I treated today's paper a little more comically. Even though it was still quite lousy, all I could say is that it wasn't a difficult paper, but due to my lack of preparation I seriously want to knock head on the table. Overall, no one to blame but my own laziness. I really need to do some reflection soon. Bugger. Nevertheless, Thank God for pulling me through this whole time.

The one and only reason I adore exams is because it means that something is coming to an end and there will be beautiful, beginning. The Beginning of Holidays! I am going home. The thought of it is just overwhelmingly joyful, and I could hardly suppress a big giant grin on my face. And that is not good while I was doing my papers. Who cares? I am going home. Seriously, right now, nothing, nothing at all beats going home. As I have mentioned, this excitement is going to fade, but I will cherish every moment of it for now! *BIG 'SUNKIST' SMILE*
As I was stoning last night, I realized I have lost the hands of a sheltered kid. Right now, my hands are really rough from the washing, and scarred by many wounds that I have collected over the months. Adding on to dry weather and blisters from the past, its horrible. But my hands bear the evidence of achievements I have achieved these few months, I am proud of it. Seriously.

I have no idea what kind of student I have become. Sleeping at 11pm every night 3 weeks before exams, and EIGHT pm the days before each paper. Imagine that! Have you ever heard me sleeping so early on occasions like these before? Well, this will be the first! Just simply amusing!
(typing on a Mac is so tiring, ack)
I realized that I have missed out a whole lot of details in this post, eg. certain specific events and references. Pardon me for that. Oh, I will be restricting myself from internet the whole of this year, but you will hear from me through this blog or the phone! The good old telephone(: I will attempt to blog and update my status as I can.
That's all, for now!

"The more you know, the more you do not know"

Disastrous Move-out!

2007-06-23T22:48:00.000+08:00

Gosh, after 5 hours of hopping over heaps of things thrown on the floor, filling dozens of bags of waste paper, compressing everything into luggages and boxes, my room has finally regained a little bit of its original condition. Just a tiny bit. Getting out of a familiar place does take quite a bit of work, doesn't it. Oh well, I hope moving there will be a lot better, considering there's foooooooood! (:
Anyhows, I have no energy left in me to elaborate on any specific details. And I won't be coming online for the almost the whole of next week, so if there's anything, just ring me on my handphone or email me and I will return your call/message, hopefully. If I have the time, that is. I foresee long, dreadful hours of mugging before me, considering I've wasted so many hours packing, doing random stuff! poof*
That's all for now.

2007-06-23T11:11:00.000+08:00

The Writer block syndrome haunted me for the first 45 minutes of the exam, and I was basically squeezing water out of stone, and none of the sentences I wrote made much sense. Was a little terrified for a while, but I managed to overcome it and the rest of the paper was quite smooth. Such a relieve. Yes, this is the EAP paper. I am finally getting rid of the topic on Non-verbal communication. Not that I dread it, but after doing nothing but dissecting this same topic for a whole term, there won't be much more to explore considering we are just scraping the surface of this topic. So how much surface can you scrape?

Anyhows, have to pack and study! whoots! I feel a sudden surge of energy and urge to complete tasks that I assigned myself, even though its some dreadful ones. seeyou!

"Its not hard to imagine" -Samsung

2007-06-22T13:02:00.000+08:00

I happened to realize that I can concentrate in the weirdest places. Concentrate in the sense that I can sit down and think properly. For instance a drama room. Went there early to do some maths questions and surprisingly, it was rather effective!
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How would I have imagined? Perfect score for drama monologue test. How would I have imagined? With Jack and Ernie as my examiners. How would I have imagined? That screaming-at-the-mirror technique would work. But it all did. And what can I say?
Praise the Lord! To God be the Glory(:
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During HOI class we were looking through some paintings and I learnt that cupid had a half brother. And apparently, he was an anti-Love cupid-like thing, and the son of Venus and Mars (as in the Greek Gods). The first thing I thought, I think its probably this silly thing that makes my world recently such a lousy place. Ugh.
"With Love, true Love, this world could be a much better place. A place where people are not out to gain only success for themselves. Because success is not only for personal glory, but also winning the heart of others. That's success."
Yet again, I can blame it on the spread of humanism, can't I. They promoted the willingness to strive for the best. Incontrovertibly, its human nature to want to be better than others. What would the world be like if the it had remained in the system like the medieval ages, when everything revolves around God, church and basically everything to do with Christianity. Would it be better, simpler, and less troublesome than it is today?
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Let your imagination run wild.

De-lovely Day!

2007-06-21T14:59:00.000+08:00

God is really knows when to help, okay, actually He helps me get through life everyday. And Thank You Sonia so much for hearing me rattle on and on, and providing advice (WOW, finally some advice!). Yup, anyway, very grateful. Hugs!
I still have to blame it on my slow reaction time. I can't believe that it took me so long to figure things out, and that I can actually settle things on my own. Waste a whole lot of time, but nonetheless, it was very beneficial. As I have said, I always learn things the hard way. So what? Its still learning, isn't it? I can foresee many similar cases to come, but with the Lord and my family and those friends who truly matter, I will be ready.

Had a wonderful sleep last night, no silly things that drew me out of dream land, and it was a beautiful morning today. The walk down Tin Alley was a refreshing start to a new day, absorbed quite a lot of information from various classes. In all, today's great! Praise the Lord.
Oh yes, and I even had sometime to go down to Safeway to grab some junk food and shopped around Esprit which was on sale. I am definitely going back tomorrow to buy clothes! Yay! I wonder where I found the time to do things like that. Hm...

2007-06-20T11:44:00.000+08:00

Gorging down noodles in Literature lessons during lunch breaks ain't a very comfortable thing to do. Ack. Anyways, it wasn't a very pretty morning because of the dark clouds and terribly low temperature. I had to convince myself for 45 minutes to get out of my comfortable, cosy bed! Horrible. Ugh, okay, I have to stop narrating about my life because its not what I did that made it interesting, its how I feel about it. (Yes, Sonia?)
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The walk to the little classrooms located at Royal Parade is somewhat the best part of my day. Seems quite sad isn't it? But actually, I love it. Especially if my ipod doesn't run out of battery. Listening to Josh Groban songs and classical music, the walk down the road with fallen leaves scattered on the floor, its lovely. Because life at that time just feel so peaceful. Most importantly, it is the time when I get think about anything, reflect about life so far in Melbourne, 'cross-referencing' to the past. Just recently, I recalled what my dad said, the very few thing he emphasized so much on, things that I never thought I would need to experience and that was- isolation. This feeling just occurred recently, all so suddenly. And to make things feel a lot worse, as I thought about people around me back in Singapore. Even at the lousiest times in Singapore, there will always be different groups of people that I can turn to, and all sorts of different views and opinions about life I can receive. But here... Time and again, I told myself that I shouldn't be looking back into the past, because the past won't come back to you. I guess it was a mistake that I have arrived at a bias conclusion. Because as time goes on on my own here, every naiive opinion I once had is going to change.

But you know what, I will appreciate this lesson that I have learnt, the feeling I am experiencing, I am going to thank God for it. Because its a little baby step to uncovering what life is all about- the interaction between human, and the world. Thank God for allowing me to learn the appreciate even the most subtle feeling, somethings that I have always left out in my life. Most importantly, Thank God for the past.
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"Always forgive your enemies, nothing annoys them so much." -Oscar Wilde.
How true, how true...

"When dealing with people, let us remember we are not dealing with creatures of logic. We are dealing with creatures of emotion, creatures bustling with prejudices and motivated by pride and vanity." -Dale Carneige

2007-06-18T18:23:00.000+08:00

Attempting to grasp Accounting so that I remember it once and for all so that I won't be bugging people over and over again. A protracted, grueling, frustrating process I must say. I wonder how long can I last before I start ripping up my Accounting book. Moreover, my junk food has reached a dangerously low situation. I shall now begin junk food rationing so that it can at least last till tomorrow morning. grrr...

I miss you, you and you! A lot. seriously. A lot.

Some things just can't be understood...

2007-06-18T14:44:00.000+08:00

I woke up in the morning and drew up my curtains with the strong sun rays flooding the room, and I thought "Thank God for this beautiful morning. Now my clothes can dry faster!"
The next thing I heard was that a gunman shot 3 people, one died and the other two in critical condition. And the location was just around the corner at Flinders Lane. Thats how I started the day, the first piece of news I heard. Its just saddening I must say after hearing the entire incident. Apparently, the guy who was killed was just a passerby attempting to help a lady who was being dragged out of the house by his husband(gunman), and when he stepped forward, the gunman just shot him, the wife and another passerby who also tried to help. A family problem that turned deadly. Well, thats the least I would care, what I care most was the death of that good samaritan (quoting from yahoo7.com) I couldn't help but ask God why He had allow the gunman rob the guy's life within a split second, while the gunman was allowed to live for another few more days. Why?
God rewards and punishes accordingly doesn't He? And now, a man who tried to find himself dead early in the morning at 8.15 am for the sake of a stranger. What has this world become?
I suppose its not up to me to judge what the Lord is doing, but its just devastating to hear news like this, First Thing in the morning! Gosh.
May the injured recover soon, and the dead rest in peace, and may their family members find peace and comfort in the Lord. Amen.

Anyway, my day was just fine, and quite productive as well. Managed to clear quite a few doubts regarding accounting, and maths. Greeeeaaaat. Finally I got my first taste of sweet chilli after being deprived from garlic/sweet chilli for months. De-lovely~
As the moving-out day approaches, the mess in my room increases proportionally. Which is just a hideous sight. ugh. It will get better by thursday. It must! *poof* Coincidentally, the day I go home is approaching too! yay. Oh, and the most infectious topic that is going around the every tutorial class would be, what will they do first when they go home. And the obvious answer was EAT, FEAST, GORGE, whatever. Yup, I am following the crowd this time. But before that, I have to devour the information in my books first. Dang! Why can't they make edible, bite-size information that is tasty and easily digested.
oops. CIAO!

LOVE LIFE!
True style never shouts.

Sneak peak!

2007-06-17T14:40:00.000+08:00

Bugger! The day has barely started and the looming black clouds are threatening to completely blanket the sun. Yes, Australia has reached the season where the days start to become irritatingly short, sensible people running around with thick coats and scarves tightly wrapped around their necks like an anaconda, and people like Puffing Billy or smoking chimneys just that its not air pollution. Winter is here. And it seriously bothers me. Apparently, my biological clock follows the brightness of the day. The darker it gets, I get hungry earlier, and when I eat earlier, I get hungry even earlier. See my point? Now, lunch seem more like breakfast, tea time became desert which I just devoured a whole tube of Oreo and 2 cups of milk. And I have to add in 2^nd tea time to satisfy my ever hungry stomach. Dinner just got pushed forward an extra 2 hours because the sun sets at an unearthly hour. Supper turned out to be the original dinner time, and in addition to that, a 2^nd supper. Indeed, this is winter. A very food-consuming (thus money consuming), sinful and fattening winter. All I am lacking now is hibernating. It will definitely be a lot simpler to hibernate than gorging food.

But don’t get me wrong, I still love food! Keeps my ramblings and rants about studying aside while I desperately try to urge myself to squeeze out some words for my Literature essay. This is the life, for now.

Anyway, the day of going home is approaching and I can hardly contain the excitement. This feeling is going to fade as I tune into the Australian life just like I have adjusted to the Singapore one, so I will truly appreciate this. Had a wonderful dream last night, I dreamt of all that had happened in Australia, just that in a slightly distorted manner, where characters are squished into my blurry-cloudy dream bubble. But I saw them. I saw what I would do when I got back home.

This is the quote I shared with a dear friend the other day:

“Love Life, my friend. Whatever that life may be. Because this is the life God has blessed you with, and it is the path God mapped out for you for a beautiful future”.

Hey, hope you feel more balanced and optimistic of your current environment. The days when people envy your life will come, and let that be your dream for now. You will reach it soon, I am sure of that because you have gone through enough to deserve it. I miss you too! My prayers and quotes will always be with you, and it will keep coming. –hugs.

I look ridiculous with a pony tail sticking out at the front. *sigh* the sacrifice I have to do to get my side-parting. And a walk to the supermarket with the wind blowing at an insane direction destroys it all. Sometimes even the wind doesn't even know where it wants to go, humans will be worse! *randomness!

2007-06-15T17:48:00.000+08:00

Short post because I am starting to get pins and needles from sitting on the floor for so long. Therefore it was quite a painstaking effort to change my blogskin. Anyway, I had a wonderful day. First, I will have to announce that God brought me through a controversial debate today. Issues that have been nagging and bugging philosophers, scientist and everyone else in this world.
"What is faith?" "Is there prove that God exist" You get what I mean. Its along those lines anyway. So, basically I was one of the very very few in the class (that is if I consider those who stood on the fence) who believes that God exist, and faith is reasonable. When I saw the questions, the first thought that came to me was- will I be stoned down by questions, and not make it out of the door alive, or at least with my faith shattered. Well, Thank God, I didnt! Managed to handle the questions and comments moderately well. Finally, after fascinating my group member with my tad bit of knowledge of Christianity, I walked out of the room triumphantly. Hm, imagine if Pris was in my place, she is going to blow everyone away with the things that she know. (Yes, Pris?) Anyhows, its just an informal discussion, but somehow, I feel great after the whole thing!

Later at drama monologue exam, seeing everyone entering and exiting the exam room either with their tongues sticking out or smiling or flushed cheeks was just nerve-wrecking.
Because it just mean that my turn of 'judgement' for all the memorizing is approaching. yes, despite repeating my lines for the hundredth time, I am still afraid/terrified that I would miss my line. At the end, it wasn't too bad. Thank God! Its oveeer. Now, I finally, but dreadfully have to sit down and stare at books hopefully the info will somehow just soak into my saturated brains. Great, now I have to empty the monologue paragraphs and all other useless thoughts away, to make way for THE 'information'.

2007-06-11T20:54:00.000+08:00

After a quick, late post from last night, I am back again to update you guys about my day! Special day for Queen Elizabeth because she took her first breath (I have no idea how many..) years ago, which is seriously none of my business. I wonder when I can have the whole country go on a public holiday on my birthday. And since I am a happy kid, I celebrate my birthday everyday. So imagine that. Anyways, current status: Chocolate overdose. Blame it on Jesica. She tempted me. Stupid Gingerbread man. Went to my future hostel to take a sneak peak before I actually move in, and baked cakes. Started doing most of the manual labour by beating the eggs and mixing the mixture with a Fork! Try that! While Siyue and Iris ran off to get some extra ingredients, I sat there and stared at the mess. My hands got itchy and with Jesica's agreement, I 'baked' my first chocolate cake (with her instructing me, that is), in addition to that, Jesica claimed that it was the most unpressurized cake she baked for the day. This is when the word Chocolate came in to the day. We had chocolate bars thrown in to the cake, and the pot to melt, and chocolate powder anywhere and everywhere. At the end, Jesica and I were scraping/scavanging the melted chocolate out of the pot and being so fascinated with the little chocolate cake. Oh yes, and the whole time, the only thing I could smell was butter! Also, today I witness how unhealthy a cake is. Not that I haven't seen a cake being baked before, just that its realistically done before me and the sugar content is amazingly high. See, how sinful I have been after downing numerous de-lovely chocolate muffins when I arrived in Melbourne?
Speaking of sin, Jesica received a few glares and knocks on the head from me today for *ahem* sinning. (OMG, remember?) Ask her.

The closer I approach exams, the closer I am to the day I go home. Dramatically, ironically sad? This is the life of a student. More so for an overseas student when she desperately, yearns to go back home. Oh well, I will and must get pass this exam with a breeze. For now, I shall succumb to restricting myself to use the word 'study' or any related words on my blog. Due to the fact that I have already reminded myself enough, and also being flooded with by various blogs I visited.

I will survive, as always. Just that this time, a whole lot better!

2007-06-10T23:08:00.000+08:00

Is the latest trend on the blog to start 'grading' people like a usual primary-school-teacher? So far, I 'bumped' into 2 blogs just like that. Hm, not exactly accidentally, I was directed.
Oh wells, to keep up with the trend I will just introduce some of those crazy people I have been mixing around with, but I shall not go into detail because of some sensitive issues. *Ahem*

Siyue (the person I mention MOST!) Nose and Hot chocolate specialist. Nothing related to that will slip pass her without her commenting in the most random time and way. Also a mediator when 'Cold war' happens. and the protagonist in most rumours that float around. (Oops) Future neighbour.

Iris. Mysterious I have to say. But it will uncover after a while. Nonetheless, the depth of her knowledge is like bottomless pit. Obsession with certain things cannot be easily understood. Future neighbour

Ru Jin. Oh gosh. what can I say? Eccentric, a Narcissist, and someone just filled with Randomness. Possesses the talent of having a neat handwriting (considering he is a guy with the listed personality), and must I mention the word? T-A-L-L. The quote a friend gave me should be passed on to him now. "You are so tall that when someone climbs on you, their ears 'POP'"

Wang Xiao. Nice guy. Greets anyone with a big smile, very helpful (because he did me a huge favour) Future room mate of Ru Jin. Good luck!

Jesica. Baker. Donkey. Gingerbread man. Skittles supplier. *PLOP*

2007-06-10T09:29:00.000+08:00

Due to the 'long-term' stagnancy of my blog, someone's eagerness, and another somebody who conveniently leeched onto my post to inform people of his Melbourne academic status, I have decided to update! So, I will soon be lifting my oh-so-lazy body to the conference room to official start clocking in some productive time. Therefore this post will be just some usual happenings and rants...
Rewinding the clock to yesterday, Siyue came over at about twelve to have lunch (THANK YOU!) and attempt to study, we ended up chatting the whole time about anything and everything. At the same time she started picking on my wholemeal cereal which she 'hated'. Detect the contradiction? Anyway, I don't think I will be homeless during the exam period because I did manage to find somebody extremely kind to provide a shelter for a week. Even though I am not sure yet, I really do have to convey my gratitude to you! Thank you thank you ! (tyty, tyvm)
Anyhows, FSSCs came over to work on the promotional video. Which was, I must say a surprising success! Well done, guys. Zhiliang had to make some sacrifices (his dignity....) *grins*
Just wait for the lectures and you will see why. Well, I am having some technical trouble on my part, which I will most probably have to turn to the dumbest way to solve it. Hm, after laughing my heart out the meeting was over! Shaw Jhee, Siyue and I decided to walk to Lygon to grab some dinner. Very nice, indeed. In all, this was my oh-so-fun day, because no solid studying involved! *disturbing* Anyway, loving the life I have now. I don't need to ask for more, because I am sure that more will come. And I will appreciate every moment God has given me (Yes, even the cold weather, the exams, the exhaustion and frustration...)

LOVE LIFE!

Another little nuisance...

2007-06-06T19:56:00.001+08:00

The first time I walked out of that pathetically isolated General Office at Wynne Cottage, I really felt like screaming, out of anger. They just sucked $180 out of me just because I withdrew for Chemistry. (So much for loving Chemistry in the pass, and thats how this subject treats me when I abandon it) Well, actually I did splurt out some vulgarities. Ack. Anyway, the after asking around regarding this matter, I went back again to ask about it, and the reason they gave me for taking that amount of money was undeniably true, but they decided to take another look at it considering I am from a later intake and I only took 2 practicals! At the same time, Siyue was picking on the postcards. So, I pray hard that they can reduce it. Such suckers, money-suckers that is.

Yet again, the teachers just reveal their different talents every now and then leaving me very amused. Extremely impressed, I should say. During Literature class today, we were studying this book called "A thousand years of good prayers"- this collection of short stories based on China's past. There were some economic and political terms listed in the book directly translated from hanyu pinyin. So, Glen just suddenly shoot out a couple of chinese words out of nowhere. I asked iris "did he just say chinese?" Not that I didnt understand what he said, its just that I was rather surprised that he managed to say it at a rather accurate 'tone/pitch' (whatever you call it) And he went even further as to write it out on the board, IN CHINESE. Gosh! The handwriting was amazingly proportionate and ... professional-looking. Undoubtedly, it looks ALOT nicer than Jo's words. That was the first thing that came to my mind. *grins* To him, writing chinese is like drawing square boxes. Nonetheless, a fantastic attempt. Oh, and he didnt just know how to read and write the ones in the book, he even added some connectors and extra words in his sentences. WOW. *blink blink*

You see, we have cool funkay teachers around(:

Listening to some Josh Groban and Pirates 3 songs for the umpteenth time while attempting to revise Maths. I am just *this* close to finishing the chapters that I am not sure, once I am done with them, I can start plunging into papers(: Whee. Thats when easy maths become FUN! seriously.
Jesica, Siyue and I decided that we will no longer have "LA", "LOH" and what have you, in our conversation. A difficult task I must say, because the moment I finished my sentence, and wanting to put the blame on Siyue for adversely influencing my spoken English, I went "you LA" Goodness, so contradicting huh? :D Jesica and I had a hilarious time in between walking from place to place, bugging each other.

Are we there yet?
*PLOP*
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Just another random thought that came into my mind, I still cant believe that I am studying and surviving on my own now. The journey wasnt pleasant, because I, unfortunately, had to learn things the hard way. But somewhat, these experiences come by hard, but they stay rooted there too. Its a blessing. A true blessing, and experience that I will cherish so dearly.

Reflecting...

2007-06-02T19:10:00.000+08:00

EDITED VERSION! EXTENDED!

By semi popular demand, and because of my forgetfulness, on behalf of the whole lot of kids,
THANK YOU RUJIN'S MUM FOR ALLLLLLLL THE DE-LOVELY DE-LICIOUS FOOOOD! AND ALSO ALLOWING US TO GATHER THERE! (:

SECOND: THANK YOU RU JIN FOR NEGLECTING US BECAUSE HE STUFFED TWO CUSHIONED HEADPHONES INTO HIS EARS, BLOCKING OUT THE WORLD AS HE IMMERSED HIMSELF INTO THE WORLD OF DIABLO. He was nearly flushed into the computer mind you.

2007-06-02T17:57:00.000+08:00

These amazing people make life in Aussie, whole lot better!
We were all bloated and high when we took this pic(:
Jesica, siyue, iris, wang xiao, kenneth, ru jin, and me=)

My fellow pirates fan! *yay* Okay, our glasses were reflecting light. So we look so nerdy! O-O

For some reason, Siyue's eyes look like they are glowing and popping out any minute.
We were snapping as many pictures as we can because the lighting was purrrr-fect.

All the hard work for, uh... an hour? One hundred and fifty dumplings. (and counting at that moment) All ready to be gobbled down by fellow desperately hungry people.

Baker. Washer. Pirate. HAH.

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Everyone's bugging me for the photos. But I just cant resist adding a line or two(:

All in all, today was sooooo entertaining. We managed to keep ourselves entertained for quite a while playing cards and eating the non-stop supply of dumplings that were just placed in front of us. I was sooo full after eating the HEALTHY brownies and greasy fried dumplings(but its still sooooooooo good). mhmmm~

2007-05-30T18:39:00.000+08:00

see no evil,
buy no evil.

:D My policy for quite a long while. I am saving, waiting for all my newest, most beloved, and most needed things to be released. Thats when I really spend. Oh, and on concerts and Aussie Open too! They are going to cost me a bomb.

This is not a random post, just a constant reminder for me to not be tempted by all the HUGE sales going on around Melbourne. First is the Guess 50% off somewhere around the corner, and another one at Chadstone Shopping Centre where Siyue is burning a hole in her pocket now.

Do not be tempted, XY. Your money is needed for better uses. Australian Open remember? -screams! Oh, and for that tournament, I am going to buy the best seats(: If I can manage to book them in time! *yay*

Recently, something popped up, a new dream you may say. And that is to take a year off and travel around the world. Anywhere I want around the world. Okay, maybe I dont need a year off, I will go backpacking around the world for 3 months. I am perfectly fine with that too! Imagine that! ONE dollar a day should take me about 5676 days to get an around-the-world air ticket. and another dollar a day for 3455 days to get my around-the-world allowance. Bullshit! Start saving XY, you have to at least reach one your dreams within 3 years!

Money is the root to all evil! Hm. I beg to differ this time. Money is the root to reaching my dream! (:

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"I live not in dreams but in contemplation of a reality that is perhaps the future"
-Rainer Maria Rilke

2007-05-29T20:17:00.000+08:00

I desperately need a place where I can throw up all my thoughts, so that I can have a focused mind to do my accounting essay (which I dread). Gosh. Information for the accounting essay, and all the happenings of the day are all jumbled up.
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Coincidentally, I came across so many sources that are commenting about the Singapore education system. All of them are indirectly criticizing the system, which I incontrovertibly have to agree with. Well, that's why I am where I am right now right? As everyday passed by, I feel my life starting to slow down. Do not be mistaken, I am glad. Very happy actually. I am bringing this topic up once again is because I somehow pity students in Singapore even though they seem pretty contented and happy there. Well, its just how I see it. I compared my life now, to the my life then. Drastic difference in the way I take in knowledge, but also my everyday perspective about school and learning. I used feel like I am being pushed around in this torrent of water, and I am just following where I am "suppose" to go. Even though I had this strong will to be different, and go for my dreams they way I want it, there seemed to be no way out. But now, I know what I am doing, even if I am complaining about my stupid essay, I know what I am doing. I can see the direction in my life, the way I want it to be. Most importantly, I see hope and opportunity for my future. While in Singapore, once some exam goes baaaaaaaad, thats the end of the road, and for a long while all doors would be closed. Thats how I felt while mugging my brains out for the continuous tests and exams. People may argue that after all the hard work, they get a more qualified certificate, which opens many doors. But does your academic life all come down to a piece of paper that opens SO MANY doors and yet you dont know what you truly want? Whats the point? DISCOVER YOURSELF! Its time to ask yourself what you truly want, ask yourself what you are studying for. For all I care, I know mine long ago, but now, I have the chance to work towards it.

A few weeks ago, I was talking to my mentor (A PhD holder), and I am truly glad he shared the same views as me even though he didnt directly say so. He was telling me that he went to Singapore to give a talk to singapore teachers and principles on how to make the education system more creative and no longer just let students regurgitate what they have learnt. It sounds easy doesn't it? But the ridiculous thing he heard was that, things can be added but not taken out. In detail, it means that it is not allowed to remove all the tons of tests and exams that flood the students, but the proposed education system can add "creative" subjects into it. Which means all the emphasis on marks, mugging like crazy and all, stays there. But they start adding in subjects like HOI (for example). Crazy isn't it? Then whats the point of "attempting to modify" the system. A hypocritical act, I must say. Just to show that the government WANTS TO make the life of students better, but actually they are saying "SORRY, NO WAY"
some things never change...
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Sorry, if my post doesnt really make sense, because right now I am just pouring out whatever first rush to my mind. Good, now that's emptied with all the distracting, yet bugging thoughts, I shall focus on my accounting essay!
Whoots!

2007-05-26T11:45:00.000+08:00

THREEE you must do if you watch Pirates 3
number ONE. empty your bladder before the show. You dont want to wet your sit
number Two. never miss a single minute of this 3 hour show
number THREEEEEEEEEEE. SIT THERE AND WATCH THE CREDITS, enjoy the beautiful music. DO ANYTHING YOU LIKE. just dont leave the cinema unless the people chase you out. because you will regret very badly.

Thats what I am feeling now. I will be watching POTC again, because I just missed the most precious part of the show, and also because of that part, it left me so emo for 2 days and counting.
Okay, even IF i watch it, I will feel sad after the whole thing because it is most probably the end of the trilogy. And that entire amazing cast will go on separate ways. =(

I think I am only feeling 1% of what Johnny Depp is feeling.
It has been a looooong way. 4-5 years...
But there are certain things that will have to come to an end.

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Waiting for POTC 3 OST. =)
In the meantime, I have to complete my tutes which has been neglected due to my essays, and lots of reading to do!
CIAO

2007-05-25T21:46:00.000+08:00

Pardon me for the sudden change of layout. Not really my usual doings. But, just let me get over this Pirates fever first(: You cant deny that this layout is cool eh?

2007-05-25T16:18:00.001+08:00

Current status: Emo-ing.
Once again, I have to announce that I have yet to recover from Pirates of the Caribbean.
I will have to give credit to it nonetheless, not just because its such a shocking and fantastic movie, it helped me survive Jack's drama class without being severely negatively commented. HAH. Its a big deal, because he picks on me all the time? I dont know why! So, I went to class with a less chirpy mood and proceeded with all the acting. All in all, I SURVIVED!
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Ohyes, Pirates the Caribbean trilogy will be listed into my "best movies ever made" list. (:
And I am going to hunt down the place where it sells POTC 3 soundtrack!
Still going to ask around for the cup.
Therefore, as you can see, I am a Pirates fan!
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Was moderately nice to Jin today. I am keeping to my promise! haha. So, one day down, one more to go before I can actually scream at him if need be. But, I will TRY to learn from Siyue and have a higher tolerance level! This is essential because I wouldnt be able to survive through the year with Jin around.
BUT FOR TODAY! (I cant believe this is coming out of my post) Jin relatively nice TODAY (no guarantees for tomorrow), as in being nice/ not irritating. His face is really baaaaaad! Take care, yes!!
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You should have seen the scenes at Leeper library and Swanston Com. Lab before lunchtime. Chaotic. Every one panicking over their essays. sigh* Its going to be over soon, anyway.
I had to resist screaming out "THIS IS MADNESS"
and I would hear someone screaming "this is politics"
and another will go. "HOI!"
haha
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"To the world, you may just be just one person. But to one person, you may be the world"

2007-05-24T19:20:00.000+08:00

Pirates of the Caribbean: At world's end was... disturbing. Sorry, but I just cant seem to use any other adjectives to described it. Still trying to recover from the traumatizing movie. It is funny, hilarious actually, but extremely sad, devastating! Gosh. I nearly cried. And if you do realize, the only show Ive cried in was Lilo and Stitch. So, pirates had to be my second. *I shall not reveal any bit of detail of the show* The special effects are amazing I must say. Seriously. Amazing. And and and, the characters are getting dirtier. Literally. Ugh, sorry, I realized that my post is not flowing pretty smoothly today. Baaaaad.
Despite all the queer comments I have given, I must must must say that Pirates 3 deserves a huge round of applause. Therefore I will rate it 4 out of 5! 3 CHEEEERS!
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Let's unwind the clock a little, and go back to the time when I was released from the torturous Maths Lecture which I spent listening through Jesica's mp3. Walked around with Siyue in Melbourne Central for the first time after ages. Bought some random food stuff, popped into shoes and clothes shops, ended up sitting in a chinese restaurant savoring the de-lovely chinese food there. Yummm~ You have no idea how much I miss Hot and Spicy chinese food! OOOOHHHH... And I managed to clear Siyue's food too! haha.
Walked over to the cinema, and I started to get extremely hyper. Screaming at almost any poster I see. Especially the Shrek one. Then, Then, Then, I SAW IT! THE PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN CUP! -SCREAMS! I want it! I want it. But that cup comes with a stupid combo which includes a ridiculously Large bucket of SALTY popcorn! Of all flavours, SALTY popcorn! ugh. So, I had no choice but to part with that de-lovely cup!
After the show, Jin actually helped me ask the cashier if he could just get the cup! Gosh. Kenneth and Siyue were so embarrassed. haha. Kenneth even pulled his hood on... Nevertheless, I have to post a big shoutout for Jin.
THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOO MUCH for attempting to get the cup. Even though you didnt succeed, I really appreciate it! (: I promise I will be nice to you for ONE day. Okay, maybe TWO. haha!

All in all, BIG THANK YOU TO KENNETH, SIYUE AND JIN FOR THE WONDERFUL NIGHT, BRIGHTENING UP MY DAY, AND THE REST OF THE WEEK! *BIGGG smile!*

2007-05-22T19:16:00.000+08:00

Just popped by Jasmine's room to print some stuff, and the guys were actually were there playing cards. Despite my 'strong' resistance to not play cards during unnecessary times, I still could not resist the temptation to play a game or two. I end up playing 3 games. And I was *this* close to drinking a cup of Cherry Vodka diluted with Lemon Juice. Tonight is definitely not a night for me to drink, neither do I want to get a hangover. Dont get me wrong, because I think I sound like as if I have been drinking a lot. To clarify, I have not! I have been a good girl, doing legal things. Okay, maybe not keeping up with my homework which is illegal in my own rules. Ack. Got to pull up my socks, exams are coming. Speaking of which, May went by really quickly.
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Freezing call today, had to pull out my winter clothings. I made a big mistake of not bringing my gloves along because my hands are left out in the cold as the chilling wind bit into my exposed skin. I did try to stuff my hands into my pockets, but my coat happened to have a lousy pocket cutting as the pocket is located so far back. Ack. There's suppose to be hail today. Where is it? Silly weather forecast.
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Managed to buy the Pirates 3 tickets on premier night. 3 cheers for Siyue who went down to melbourne central to buy it. YAY! Can't wait!! Its going to be a blast. Captain Jack is Back!
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Great, now I am done with my brief update, I shall start deciphering what does "accounting" mean. grrr....

2007-05-15T21:55:00.000+08:00

I am finally satisfied with my HOI plan which I have painfully worked on for 2 nights and nothing else. I feel guilty for neglecting my other subjects. *sigh* But this HOI assignment don't just end at the planning stage. There's still the actual draft and writing essay stage. Gosh. Fortunately, I have quite a long break tomorrow which I will spend working on my Maths which requires immediate attention. In this case, REVISION!
New information just keep flooding in. Overwhelming, I must say. But interesting, nevertheless. HOI lecture today was about the development and influence of Christianity. But it hasn't reached the controversial part yet.

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Movie trailers does make a huge impact on how someone thinks about a film. For instance, Jin in this case changed his stubborn opinion of Pirates of the Caribbean 3. Finally, he managed to change his mind after watching the trailer, and decided to watch POTC 3! Great. Someone to watch it with. And I am sure he is "eloquent" enough to persuade others to come along! Hah. Counting down to about 7 days more? YAY!
JO! do not watch POTC 3 illegally okay. We must respect good films!
All POTC fans, go to a cinema to watch it. Respect good films. "BE A MAN. DO THE RIGHT THING!"
:D

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Did I mention that I was an hour late for accounting tutorial. Gosh.
To prevent history from repeating itself. Off to bed.

My itchy fingers shall not switch off the alarm clock and go back to bed
My itchy fingers shall not switch off the alarm clock and go back to bed
My itchy fingers shall not switch off the alarm clock and go back to bed
My itchy fingers shall not switch off the alarm clock and go back to bed
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2007-05-13T20:49:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
I LOVE YOU, MUM! YOU ARE THE BEST
THANK YOUUU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING,
EVERYTHING YOU HAVE SACRIFICED FOR ME TO BRING ME TO THIS STAGE OF MY LIFE!

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Its time to appreciate your parents. Thank them for what they have done for you:
Thank them for serving you hot delicious food everyday
Thank them for listening to you when you feel sad or troubled
Thank them even more when they share your joy, being able to feel truly happy for you
Thank them for being there to worry for you
Thank them for staying up late every night to take care of you; making sure you don't catch a cold in the middle of the night.
Thank them for every simple thing they have done for you. It can be trivial in your eyes, like pouring a cup of water, or ironing your clothes, but later, when you are out in the world on your own, you will appreciate every single minor thing they have done for you.
Thank them for giving you a chance- a chance to do anything you want and need to survive later in life.
Thank them for all the sacrifice they have made to bring you up to who you have become.

Tell them how much you love them. Because thats the one greatest mistake I have made- Not being able to say how thankful for everything they have done, personally.

I guess its difficult to convey to you how feelings are jumbled up right now, but you really have to be out here on your own before you can be in my shoes.

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Back to Sparta and my dearest Aristotle book which I have to return tomorrow morning. Gosh. I haven't really analyzed it. grr...
But, this post is necessary and essential for a day like this!

All in all, Thank my BIG DADDY up there!

2007-05-12T20:54:00.000+08:00

Called back to Singapore today using Jin's land line. Had a hearty conversation with Jo, Sonia and Pris. Jo didn't really show her excitement as much as Pris and Sonia, but I know she really wants to talk to me on the phone. So, basically updated each other with some plans and happenings of the immediate past and future, since we have been chatting so much online recently. As for Sonia, the first thing she said was "OMG, XINYUE!" *smiles* a pleasant surprise. Oh, at first I think she didn't recognize my voice because my mouth was stuffed with Mi Goreng. Nice to hear her chirpy voice again, really hope that she can come to Melbourne in June! Going to drag her around the place. No worries, Sonia. You will survive for PW! Pris managed to suppress her screaming spree and maintained a proper conversation(: Wow, and thats good. The last time I talked to her was scary. And she happen to always pick up her home phone and not her handphone. tsk tsk. Pris: FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS.
After having a major verbal "let-out" with these people, I managed to release my grip from the telephone and sit joined the rest to watch movies even though I could have gone on calling dozens of people. Probably next time.
300 was quite a cool movie, I must say. The girls (including me) were feasting our eyes on the very well-built actors in the show who barely wore anything, revealing their bulging muscles. *whao* On the other hand, the actresses were wearing very skimpy clothes I must say.
Here's a proper review even though I didn't finish the entire movie due to somebody's carelessness. The movie was rather fascinating because I wouldn't have imagined Sparta being like that while I was reading all the primary (Aristotle: The Politics) and secondary sources. Never would I imagine the torturous training men had to go through, and eventually every single one of them becoming "professional" soldiers. Undoubtedly, there was some exaggerations to it, but it was an eye-opener. I guess I have a slightly more graphical view of what had happened there and then. I was particularly impressed with the intelligence and ruggedness of the women. They had to go through training and education as well, which was rather rare at those times. Its amazing how strong(mentally) and courageous women can be when it comes down to making big decisions for war or in politics. Anyway, history for ancient Sparta is getting very interesting, and I can actually learn what I have studied in historical films like this! *amazed* Considering reading Aristotle: The Politics even when I am done with my History of Ideas essay. I am fascinated with how in depth these people can think in ancient times, and certain issues he raised are still particularly applicable in the current world.

“They must take part only in those useful occupations which will not turn the participant into a mechanic.”
-Aristotle

*Note: For any Trinity students reading this, I know this is not the proper way for referencing. So please do be misled, neither should you bombard my tagboard regarding this because I know this has been a crazy issue going around HOI-essay-trapped Trinity students at this present moment!

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Enough of Aristotle, now I have to do my Math! grrr...

2007-05-11T19:48:00.000+08:00

Winner's Creed

If you think you’re beaten you are,

If you think you dare not you don’t;

If you’d like to win but think you can’t

It’s almost certain you won’t.

If you think you’ll lose you will,

For out in the world we find

Success begins with a person’s faith;

It’s all in the state of mind.

Life’s battles don’t always go

To the stronger or faster hand;

But sooner or later the one who wins

Is the one who thinks “I can”.

This is probably the second or third time I am posting this. Specially dedicated to those who miss my "priceless" quotes, as what Jo calls them. This one used to be a personal favourite for me, and Jo too(: I guess its little motivational quotes that keeps me going, pushing me through tough times. Knowing that if there's someone out there who can write stuff like that which relate to me so much, its most probably that nothing is impossible to achieve.
I think I have finally walked through the transition period for me. A very bumpy journey, indeed. Had to go through quite a bit of an emotional struggle, and a lot of confusion to get myself out of that situation. And finally, I am now back on my feet and running this race again. Now, I have a much clearer view of what I want to do in the future.

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Attended the University of Melbourne New undergraduate model talk. Basically, its this new generation of courses which will be introduced in 2008 and we are the first batch, and its going to change Melbourne University drastically. Thats great, really. And this is going to clearly distinguish Melbourne University and all the other universities in Australia. The bad thing is that being the first batch, we are like experiments (Shan't describe it as Lab RATS. It DE-GRADES us(: )
Anyway, hope it turns out well, and my future seem pretty bright.

Did I mention? Melbourne University make pretty good commercials!

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My arm's hurting from the vaccine I took yesterday. Torturous. Shall start work after much delay due to laziness (induced by my ~~funny~~lazy bones)
Interesting day tomorrow. We will see how it turns out!

2007-05-08T17:18:00.000+08:00

PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN: AT WORLD'S END
24 MAY 2007
CAPTAIN JACK SPARROW IS COMING BACK

IT'S GONNA BE BIG.

ALMOST A YEAR OF WAITING,
I WILL BE THERE TO WITNESS IT.
HOW ABOUT YOU?
YOHO YOHO~

2007-05-04T20:14:00.000+08:00

Life's been an eye-opener so far. Meeting people from all sorts of background is a whole new experience. There are some that I have met thus far could never be found in the social circle that I used to be in. Also, coming across many situations and decisions that I have to settle on my own without my parents there to give guidance, and everything just comes down to my own judgment. Pressurizing, indeed, but its a good beginning as I am being introduced into the real world where everything is all about you and only you. See, being in a slower society doesn't mean that you get loads of free time and being left with nothing else better to do. You have to learn all sorts of stuff out of the usual textbook, and usually you have to learn it the hard way. That's life.
Talked to my mentor today. He shared the same opinion as me. And thats nice(:

"Its time for me to slow down, and appreciate what my life in the past, present and future is all about. No more rushing here and there and passing everyday blindly."

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Big Noise 2007. A noisy annual event in Trinity. When 452 of us play Brazilian music at the same time, its Loud. Very loud. Quite fun, even though my drama group's runway show kind of screwed up. After which was the "legal under-age outdoor clubbing". Everyone basically started jumping, dancing and going crazy. I joined in the fun for a while. After I distant myself from the blasting amplifier, everything I heard was muffled. ack.

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Oh yes, will be going back home on the 2nd of July. And its not Singapore, mind you. Firstly I cant find a ticket back to Singapore. Secondly, there is no point in going back. Okay, maybe just to collect my leaving certificate, but I cant be bothered anyway. Singapore is no longer my home, its just some place that I stayed, and now left behind. Its sad, isn't it. How much someone's attitude can change towards a certain place, a certain person, a certain issue. Oh well, changes are inevitable in my life-I have changed. Everyone changes, some for the better, others for the worse. Its nice to read friends' blog to see how they are doing, and its great that they are all doing well in life, some doing even better than before. Guess its time for me to cut down the times when I look back to the past, and start working hard for my own future.
It probably wont be another 6 more months before I go back to Singapore. For now, I will go back to Beijing to visit those whom I really miss.
JO! I MISS YOU TOO! and I think you are the one and only one that deserve me going back for. Will call you real soon (: But for now, I will see you on AIM!

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CIAO

2007-04-30T22:43:00.000+08:00

You know what? I will not bother about whoever says about how risky to change to this major and that major, whether its a good one or bad one, or whatever shit people say. I dont give a damn. Because its just tiring to listen, trying to give myself a reason why I should or should not listen to what they are saying.
Why aren't people willing to change their mindset about certain things. Like CHANGES. When I tell people when I want to change to this or that, they go NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO or WHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYY like as if the moon just crashed into their houses. And after that, comes the torrent of reasons and questions of why I am doing this. And they start telling me to focus on what I really want and dont change it, "preventing" things from getting bad to worse. Here I am to clarify that I have an ultimate goal, and no matter what kind of failure or successful person I be in the future, that is the place I want to go, and that aim has not moved a single centimeter away from my vision. So whoever is trying to convince me about goal setting, you can strike that off your list.
Right now, I am taking a huge risk in my life because I am changing something pretty big in my life, and I will be willing to do that because at the end of the day, even if i fail, and be a road sweeper, I will be the best one. I have had enough of being brainwashed about what kind of things will be good for my future and what its not. Its because of me being silly enough to listen that cost me what I truly truly wish to pursue, and now its too late to turn back. But it doesn't matter because I have another path that I can walk, a path that "slightly" more people will agree with, but there are still some who dont, and this time, all distractions will be out my mind and I am going to walk this path no matter how risky, hopeless, useless or stupid it is. Because in my heart its telling me that I want it, and it will bring me as far as I need to get to reach that Goal and the life I want.
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As you've realized, I am just ranting out everything thats bugging me this whole period of my decision to change. And its time to throw them out, and let it stay out! I am not targeting anyone in particular, they are my feelings regarding this issue in general.

2007-04-29T11:33:00.000+08:00

Its great to be back with a slightly better mood. Wasted one and half days playing, and wasting more precious time here updating my blog (with an empty stomach. Its LUNCHTIME, mind you). Lots of work to be done, and I don't know which to start with.
Really miss those fantastic friends in Singapore. Thanks Jo, for that subtle message you tagged, sometimes I do need people like you to act as a constant reminder of the meaning of the quotes I passed round and when to apply them in my own life. I truly truly appreciate it.
I just realized that O level certificates are out, and I have to collect it by 30 June, which is impossible. So I have to entrust my beloved certificate to someone. Wonder if my dad will still be in Singapore at that time. Hm. I have to get someone I trust that won't lose it(DUH!) and won't just shove it in her bag(Ahem, Jo:). I will consider.
In the meantime, here's a random photo gallery. Photos that I have collected after quite a long while.
Oh, and yesterday marked the first month I have been in Melbourne. Hooray, I survived for a month on my own. 873847209329473... more months to go. Keep counting.

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the pleasant sight that I am greeted with every morning when I draw up my curtain. The sky is usually blue-er, and sunnier than this. But its great for Melbourne when you see skies like this. Its means its going to rain! In another words, I get to ~~waste~~ use more water. *grins*

This was the place I spent 20 minutes finding because it was one of the university lecture halls. Pretty cool. When its filled up, it looks as if people are stacking on each other.

My Chemistry's teachers son, Casper. Many girls' future boyfriend. HAHA. Beautiful blue eyes.

Everyone's fighting to take a picture with him. Aza even had to bribe him with chocolate.

Casper, Siyue, Me(:
PS: notice that when we are wearing pretty much winter clothings? Yeh, its getting quite cold here.

This is how Trinity "looks like". But sadly, thats actually the residential college, and we rarely go anywhere near that place. So, its just for show. Nonetheless, its beautiful.

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Thanks Ru Jin for fixing up my com. Its definitely ALOT better now(:

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CIAO

2007-04-27T16:59:00.000+08:00

and once again I flunk another test.
I am just *this* close to giving up. Just hoping that another easier door/path will be opened in my life so that I don't have to go through all the failures, and sadness that I am experiencing now.
Yet, something just stopped me from doing so. Something is telling me that if I persevere through this period of time, I can face anything in life in the future; that I can be proud of myself. In the midst of feeling lousy and hopeless, I see a tinge of hope that I will make it, somehow. Now, I am utterly confused and lost. I just want to cry it out, but I seemed to have used up all the tears just a few days ago, and I feel so stuffed up inside.

'when you have a BIG problem, you have a small God'.
Where's that faith and trust I used to have in Him?

That prediction is really coming true.
How long more can I endure?

Will tomorrow ever be a better day?

2007-04-21T20:03:00.000+08:00

NOSTALGIA
Managed to browse through hundreds of my past blog entries while Jin and Siyue went to pick up dinner. Its just amazing how much I have changed since secondary one. Every person I go crazy over during a certain period of time, my tournaments, trainings, the horrifying exams I had to endure every other year and all the crazy times I spent with my friends were all recorded here. And all these happy memories I have recorded still brings back a smile on my face. Its scary how fast time passes, just a while ago I was engaged in a stubborn refusal to move myself away from the familiar environment and now I am so glad that I am able to slow down a little in my life and reflect what I have done for the past few years, start a new, and plan for the future which I believe will be a beautiful start. Quoting from what Gillian wrote "Hold on to your dreams, wherever you go. This is not the end, but the beginning of a beautiful friendship which cannot even be described in words." But, I titled this entry as NOSTALGIA because, I still miss my friends back in Singapore. Dont worry, I haven't forgotten about you guys(:
PRIS: I WILL CALL YOU SOON! very soon. I hope.Thank you so much for the prayer that day.Life already seem so much brighter here. Even though winter is coming at skies are getting darker.Oh, and The scream that day was PRICELESS.
AC TENNIS: YOU GUYS ARE SUPERB! KEEP WHACKIN`

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My apartment is littered with a couple of 1.25l of Sprite and a couple of Domino's Pizza boxes due to my horrible diet recently. I have been surviving on pizza, Pepperoni pizza to be exact , for the past 3 days. Nothing but pizza. Imagine that. Nevertheless, I am still losing weight. I think I am not eating a balanced diet, thats why. Ack. Monday is going to be a new "term" for the April Accelerated kids when we all get broken up and shoved into various Feb intake classes. Wonder how it would be like. hm? Jin and Siyue came over to "study" after Chemistry practical and we ended up crapping. Dinner was like a confession time when we start talking about some "serious" matters. Well, since when was discussing an issue with Jin became "serious"? *grins*

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Going to mug and write some random stuff.
Life is getting better!
CIAO

2007-04-10T18:50:00.000+08:00

THE LONG AWAITED POST!

Specially dedicated to Priscilla Lily Samuel who is always caring about how my living conditions are. How sweet.

HOME SWEET HOME

This is the door where you come in, and you will see my closet and the "kitchen.

My living room. Currently it still still look quite bearable but unfortunetly this is the cleanest it can get. hehe. I will do my best(:
This is the place where I will be spending most of my time. The mugger's table. and sooner or later, it will be filled with lime green stuff! Aussie has ALOT of lime green things. YAY. Note the two pieces of paper on the paper? Thats from Pris!
You will have to tilt your head abit. This is the toilet! obviously. and I have to study beside it because my table is right next to it.
This is my loooong and narrow bed beside the little partition.

Thats all folks.
CIAO~

2007-04-09T14:45:00.000+08:00

Just needed somewhere to rant about some trivial matters which are bugging me. ugh. First, I feel so homesick (naturally) And my room feel so empty and boring. Currently, I am depending on my Ipod to create some pleasant sound to fill my noiseless, cold apartment. In fact its starting to be a little overheated. bleagh. A little lost now. I should be able to get over it when school start again tomorrow after a long weekend no? Silly Hotmail isnt working, and therefore I cant read the mail Jo sent to me=(
I cursing myself for not remembering how to do my trigonometry due to my rusty brains and not revising for quite a few months. Yuck. So I am picking it up bit by bit, unravelling all the archives in my brains hoping that I can salvage bits and pieces of what I had learnt in secondary school. Tough process! Just a minute ago, I forgot how my close friends back in Singapore look like as I searched for their faces in their JC groups. *Gasp* But no worries, I just remembered and I spotted the familier faces(: *whew* I want them to have webcam so I can see them again. YOU HEAR THAT, JO, PRIS, GILLIAN and ALL others!
Having a computer sitted infront of me while I work is so distracting. It seems to lure me to switch it on and waste my time doing things like blogging. sigh~
focus focus concentrate concentrate...

2007-04-06T16:07:00.000+08:00

Just gobbled a Krispy Kreme Easter donut. Aw~ De-lovely. Mmm.. Its a public holiday today, and over here, it really mean its a Holiday when hardly anybody work. On the bad side, all shopping centres are closed, therefore we had nowhere to go, and ended up going down to beach. I think its near St Kilda's. Beautiful beach, which makes Sentosa's Siloso Beach look awful. Treated my hungry tummy with good food- Chocolate Mud Muffin. De-licious! Rich melted chocolate on the muffin. Hah. I spent the next 3-4 hours walking to find a building which still doesn't exist, so I shall not elaborate about that tiring and painful(I was walking with 'heels') experience.
Had our very late lunch at a Szechuan restaurant at Chinatown. H-O-T! Jasmine, and Melvin were going red, and Melvin ended up tearing. Hah! But the food was very good, considering its in a foreign country. Our parents brought us down to this Chinese/Asian Supermarket that sells ALL the chinese ingredients we might need. *fascinated* They've got almost everything! Thats one place I will definitely go frequently! (: But its so crowded. Oh well~

Back home with a bloated tummy, and my mum is going back tomorrow. *CRIES* So Jasmine, Melvin, Singyen, and I going shopping tomorrow to brighten us up, hopefully. For now, I will do some homework in advance.

And so it really begins...

2007-04-05T20:19:00.000+08:00

Started my day with not locking my door properly. Thanks to Jasmine who found out and informed me. Rather disturbing. Considering I checked it before I left for school. Oh well, I will just be careful the next time. Speaking of which, I was watching random TV shows this morning before heading to school, I found this actor who looks exactly like ____ just that he's not a blonde. *amusing*

Lessons were so dry today because of the teachers. Physics was such a bore. Thanks to Jasmine who allowed me to scribble on her foolscape, keeping me awake for the whole time. Then came Maths 1 which was rather endurable. What I heard in Biology was just some foreign language to me therefore I am not taking it. Chemistry was confusing. The entire day, the grand total of how many yawns: countless. And Pass It On! *YAWNS*

After classes the whole lot of us went to town. Had dinner at a Thai restaurant, gossiped quite abit, spent a whole lot of money. Wiri and haoyu went back to Safeway to buy groceries to cook. (so hardworking) and Melvin was sweet enough to accompany 3 of us around. HAH! Unfortuntely and quite unexpectedly, all the shops were close. We thought it was shopping day, you see. Ugh! Loitered around Reject Shop and went to Koko Black. We changed our minds after waiting 15 mins for seats, decided to eat gelato next door. Bought some chocolates for our parents and bought 3 scoops of gelato of random flavours. Gelato-ing in an Autumn night in Melbourne city was quite an experience(: *shivers* hah. We were adventurous enough to try some jumping shots with thick layers of clothings, which was unsuccessful after several tries. *sad* Anyhow, after being warmed up by all the exercising we headed back to our apartment.

I think we will be going to Melvin's room to party later. Have our little Easter party(: Waiting for those 2 slow aunties to call.
TURRAH!

2007-04-04T19:17:00.000+08:00

In a Station of the Metro

The apparition of these faces in the crowd;
Petals on a wet, black bough.

Ezra Pound

2007-03-30T22:00:00.000+08:00

(picture will be added here later)

ARE YOU READY TO BE BLOWN AWAY!!

Spent my incredibly long day travelling out of melbourne to the Warrook Farm and Phillip Island. The bus ride was quite endurable, and credit goes to my Ipod, CSI book and the beautiful scenery.

Notice the clouds getting a tint of blackness on them, yeh, it started to rain as the day went on. I guess its suppose to be good considering Melbourne has hardly any water left (:

Don't you just love my phone. Well I do. These pictures are taken by it. Yeh! Pretty ey?

(Will post from photos later. )

So this is part 1 of my day in Melbourne...

TO BE CONTINUED! (:

2007-03-29T17:04:00.000+08:00

AND SO IT BEGINS...
its a new beginning for me, an absolutely different one. I want to thank Jo, Gillian, Pris, Sonia, ,Sam and Sanya for sending off on this exciting new journey. Its just comforting to see that my closest friends are there to support me and they are just a message away(: I can call you guys pretty often, I think.
So, people here are pretty friendly. But theres seriously very little people here. And trust me when I say little. Theres hardly anyone walking on the street infront of my apartment the entire day. Which is pretty weird considering I am right next to the university and very close to the city. Get what I mean?
Pictures will be posted soon!

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Went shopping for the past few days. Everything is just around the corner. So I carried home loads of food, drinks and all other random stuff. Not to mention, boots are quite cheap while tissue is freaking ex. hm... I wonder why. Anyways, weather here is alright, for now. At least its not fluctuating that drastically. Throwing on long sleeves and jeans with a jacket should last you for a day.
I am learning how to cook!! (Dont laugh) wow. Well, I have to, even though I have to stink up the room. pooof* Lessons will start next monday, and its going to be a mad rush. Sigh! Life will be good, and uh, NORMAL soon. I hope.
And did I mention? I feel a little out of place here. Is that feeling known as culture shock? heh. Yeh, thats what I am feeling, even though you see Asians pratically everywhere (Especially chinese). I think I am going to get an Aussie accent soon, just like everyone. Haha.
All in all, settling in pretty steadily(: Theres much about life here to discover! *excited*

CHAO~

MORE THAN WORDS,,,

2007-03-26T18:51:00.001+08:00

MY LOVE

An empty street
An empty house
A hole inside my heart
I'm all alone and the rooms are getting smaller

I wonder how, I wonder why
I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together
And oh my love
I'm holding on forever
Reaching for a love that seem so far

Chorus:
So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue
To see you once again, my love
Overseas from coast to coast
To find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again, my love

I try to read
I go to work
I'm laughing with my friends
But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking

I wonder how, I wonder why
I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together
And oh my love
I'm holding on forever
Reaching for a love that seem so far

Repeat chorus

To hold you in my arms
To promise you my love
To tell you from the heart
You're all I'm thinking of

I'm reaching for a love seem so far

This is for you my dearest PAE1sb8. You have no idea how much fun i had with all of you, and its going to unforgettable. Thank you for EVERYTHING- the fun, laughter, magic tricks(: and even scoldings.
Much love<3

At the same time, I want to acknowledge all the people who made my time in ACJC a wonderful ACsperience!
ACTENNIS TEAM- Kristal, Jo, Mag, Melinda, Tessa, Charmaine, Judith, Rochelle, Jacq, Claire(MY NEIGHBOUR!), Shuqin, Alyssa, Melissa
ATLANTI- SHARMEEN, DARREN, SONIA(BEST OGLs!!) Jonah, bingming, shawn, janice, charlotte, Neville, siti, hazimah, jinlin, kenneth, adeline, anuj
1SB8
AND ALL THE OTHER FRIENDS I MADE THAT DIDNT COME IN GROUPS,
THANK YOU!!!!!!!

2007-03-22T17:39:00.000+08:00

hm, a couple of days more and I am going to begin a brand new life. Exciting, indeed. Yet there's some parts of my mind that wants to linger here for a little longer. No doubt, leaving a place so familiar isn't that easy. But life has to go on no matter where I go, and I believe that life will get better when I get to Melbourne(: I have quite a packed year ahead. Rush for make up lessons once I reach Melbourne, assignments, tests, exams flooding in. Very soon, I will have to register for my university course which I have no idea what, due to my sudden indecisive nature. By next January, Australian Open starts... And the list of programmes/activities go on and on.
The past 4 months in ACJC was truly a remarkable ACsperience. actually even describing the time spent in ACJC with a few words will do no justice. But anyway, its definitely unforgettable. Let's hope that my time in Melbourne will be just as good(: So read for updates! Packing and shopping for stuff is pretty crazy, as usual. So many things that I have yet to buy, loads of things yet to be stuffed into my luggage, quite a few more people to say byebye to... Good luck to me~

BENJIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

2007-03-19T21:53:00.000+08:00

Packing for my Melbourne trip was a complete nightmare. My rooms are in a chaotic mess, where clothes, books and various stuff are just everywhere. Ack. So I got so frustrated, I started categorizing them. Finally my room is tidy(: At least I can see the floor. Its still a painstaking process, I was suffering from my usual cramps. ugh. If it was not for CSI, playing not stop on my portable DVD player everywhere I go to divert my attention, I wouldn't have survived the pain. Well, I have to give credit to my panadol too!
Anyway the weight of my luggage so far is dangerously swaying between the 49kg and 51kg mark. Not that exceeding a few kg would matter alot but it just mean that I cant bring any extra stuff. Thats baaaaad. I will see what I can do, in another words, I have to go through a tough decision on whether to bring that pair dark blue pants, or the one with a lighter shade of blue. hm... "NAH, I WILL JUST BRING BOTH"

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Let's see, I just pratically wasted my whole March holiday either sitting on my sofa watching CSI for the tenth time or staring at the computer, going through random sites and blogs. My chemistry and maths notes are still so clean. Well, I know I am not the only one. (AHEM.. P)

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I think I do have a few photos to post, but that will be next time. So, TURRAH!

2007-03-14T19:46:00.000+08:00

Okay, The Prestige is kind of freaky... Cant describle it properly, but the plot is freaky. All the twist in the storyline... brr... Anyway, great actors!! Pretty good sets, unique plot. I must say the movie is not bad(:
*Shant mention any "SPOILERS" here, because the reason why the movie is so highly rated IS due to its plot. WHAO. So go watch it!!
Well, I guess people like Joanne Ng Siew Yan, and maybe Pris wouldnt really be excited with such films because of all the twist and turns. Not sure about Pris, but definitely not Jo. Cos she wanted to scream at the director of Wicker Man after watching it. HAHAH!

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Had a horrendous experience at the Australian High Embassy. The 2 hours queue, the low efficiency and not to mention, the FREAKING IRRITATING people at the counter gave me such a hard time just to get some stuff done!! UGHHHH. *curse curse curse
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Hobbling around with a disgusting looking toe. off to wander around the house to look for dvds buried under thick layers of dust. pooof*
Did I mention that i havent touch any of my notes for more than a week?

2007-03-13T11:52:00.000+08:00

I value the friend, who for me finds time on their calendar but I cherish the friend who for me, does not consult their calendar.: Sam Doan

2007-03-11T19:54:00.000+08:00

AC TENNIS CAMP 07
its truly a remarkable ACsperience(: Even though training was tough and sometimes unbearable, it's times like these that really show why we are called an AC family. When no one gets left behind.
We actually got to know some of the guys from the guys team. WHAO.

Crawled out of our sleeping bags at 5.20, report at 6 plus. And we started our 15 rounds run around the track as a team. Towards the end, the thoughts of giving up just flooded my mind, but many thanks to those who were behind me, and especially kristal who was beside me who kept pushing me on. That was what forced me to complete 15 rounds. I am so proud of myself and everyone who completed the run(:

After that went to the clinic to get my toe nail plucked out. EXCRUCIATING. I was just tearing and tearing throughout the whole treatment. And when I related my painful experience to the tennis team, they were all screaming away. hhaa. apparently they could feel my pain. hah. It still hurt, and I'm eating painkillers.. UGH. this is so BAAAAAAAAAD.

Watching the team do icing was so... entertaining. hehe. especially seeing the guys screaming and all was hilarious! hehe.

I am sooooo tired now. Just stoning at the screen and let my fingers do the work... YAWN.

2007-03-06T21:06:00.000+08:00

They make Sunday really interesting!
I Love this one! haha!

1SB8!

2007-02-23T21:46:00.000+08:00

I am so glad that this crazily tiring week has just gone by, and I can finally sit on the sofa and watch CSI miami(: Well, I just realized that its not over. So yesterday was physical plus mass PE which nearly killed me. The after effects of that were sore muscles. Its seriouly painful and it restricts any movements which include from going up and down staircases, to just sitting down on a toilet bowl. Ugh! Had friendly match with St Margs today. Wasn't that fortunate, AGAIN. It started pouring, stopped, played, and pour again! Resulting to many unfinished games. grr... hm, tomorrow should be a breather I hope. Skipping training for OGA training (cant wait!) and after that in the afternoon- OG gathering. And I forsee to be a rather pathetic compared to the previous one. I guess we can only make the best out of it. Nevertheless, a BIG THANK YOU to BING MING! Sunday will be friendly match AGN- Past VS Present. Monday training- play matches AGAIN! *faints*
I hope I can survive to update my blog!

PS.

This is one of the main reason why I love, and always love The Harvard Din and Tonics.This is the new batch.But their humour, fantastic voices.... (And look who's there!His voice is still as good as ever or maybe even better!)
Many thanks to whoever recorded it. I have my own copy of their singing too! yay
<3 DINS;

2007-02-20T19:34:00.000+08:00

Hello world. Gonna get back to school tomorrow, and I just did some last minute shopping. Stocked up 6 pairs of socks and a pair of Asics sports shoes just now at Queensway. YAY. Now I dont have to run frantically around to find a decent pair of socks.

Ghost Rider was freaking good(: Absolutely de-lovely! Nicholas Cage was HOT! haha. Burning hot... He got his head on fire! haha. Great graphics, lovely actors and actresses, storyline was not bad. And its going to be in my list of "best movies ever made"

Should we be punished forever just because of one mistake? Or can there be a second chance?

Please note that you should never ever watch EPIC MOVIE, because its terribly LAME! Its just unbelievable... Goodness, I wonder which idiot actually wrote the script! So what if its a parody. Some can be funny too! Yet this is SOOOOOO LAME.

Going off to watch CSI: Miami. The cases are getting more and more exciting after each season. And so far, season 4 has been a BLAST! WHAO. I want to watch season 7. Such a pity that I dont subscribe to AXN:(

TURRAH!

2007-02-19T18:55:00.000+08:00

2 and a half days(and counting) of CSI Miami is whao~ you can now officially call me a CSI Miami addict(: and CSI Miami ONLY! Not the rest YET. My brains are now flooded it. David Caruso and Adam (something), they are soooooo coool!! -screams. haha. A few more episodes of Season 2 thn im done with 3 seasons. Season 4 next! Yay.

Hm, I'm almost done with arranging OG gathering. The next one I might have to settle will be class outing. Busy week ahead. Training, Friendly Match blah blah blah.

2007-02-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

if you think you are beaten, you ARE.
if you think you dare not. you DONT.
if you'd like to win. but you think you cant.
its most likely you'll lose, you're LOST
for out in the world we find, success begins with a person's will.
its all in the state of mind.
Life's battles dont always go to the stronger or faster hand;
but sooner or later,
the person who wins is the one who thinks
I CAN !

I dug this out from my archives. Last published on my blog in 2004. And I forgot all about it!